Oh Little Ones

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i am jessica

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last nite i had heaps on my mind which made me want to come here and write an entry

buh i couldn't cos i found that my mum was sleeping in my room...which is why i couldn't turn on the computer..cos she would wake up and get annoyed

she's also here now....buh she thinks i'm doing hw....i WAS doing hw....buh i am done now...i deserve some play time

soo i had soo much in my head last nite i couldn't sleep

and it was annoying cos i started thinking about one thing and i didn't want to think about that anymore so i'd start to think about other things and get obsessed over that and then i'd still be awake -___________-

here's an update on the waiter story:
all the gayness went on for a few more weeks, then one day he seemed to be avoiding me.....so then the gaybo that i am.....i get pooped over it.....then half way through the week [3 days of sooking] i started to think that i was gonna get bak at him and stuff.....so then....the next week i talked to heaps of other ppl...and wen he tried to talk to me...i ignored him...yes i noe, how immature of me, buh i was emmotional!, it was my period week.

and then i was quite positive that i was over him...

[yes...most of my 'things' are like fads.....i'll get over them sooner or later]

and then on saturday [21st] i had this whole deja vu thing happening...same stuff happening as the first day he talked to me and i spazzed out. and then i started to think that maybe i wasn't over him....

and then of course i find that i am a dodgii communicator....and realise that me being me....which is all demented around a guy....may seem to them....that i dun want them to talk to me....which i do want....

so that was wat i was thinking about and trying to avoid thinking about all last nite...i thought about all these things i will do next week....this week....i shall START the conversation

i WILL!!!!

...i may need some encouragment..

and to memorise some lines...such as 'hi, how are you'......cos i noe that wen it comes to it...i will forget EVERYTHING

i can't wait till i get old enough to recruit some of my own staff

as in getting some of my friends to come and work with us.....although it can't reallii work out until you guys find a way of getting to all the places....such as...a CAR....

and i guess to be bringing in ppl i'd have to work outside...so i can help you get into it....

so...sometime this yr...or early next yr...i promise to start working outside...with the PEOPLE.....and the uniform.....

2moz i'm going to go book a hair cut...

i dun0o wat style i want

i want it short....buh different...since now melody, monica, sam and serena AND jasmine all have short hair.....my short hair would not look different...

i was hoping that since i'm going to that hennessy lane place...a famous place with WESTERN hair dresser...i could tell them wat type of look i'd want and they can do it...hopefully

i want something short, different...something that will look good in a uniform...skool, waitress or at the movies...i must look professional buh sexy-ful for my new jobs!! ^______^

monica's b'dai party is coming up

on saturday

i can't wait

cos on saturday...i shall go to her party...then later on i will go to work...and start a conversation with a guy.....and i noe...i will not talk to some random loser guy that i already talk to....i will talk to one of the bums that i get nervous around....

well i think i'm working...

....wait...

there is no wedding this week...

must be next week...

next week is my party!!

....then i guess my conversation making will have to wait until....the 19th of May ^__^

now, let me talk about japanese

basically

i have a dilemma

i am a yr behind wat i am supposed to be

in yr 7 i was super good...and could have skipped a yr....and the teacher asked me if i wanted to...buh i didn't understand the whole vce thing...that i would have to be in the same or one year above class as i am at day skool....and i didn't want to leave my new friends...so i said no

and sooo the smart ppl like vincent moved up to his riteful class and i stayed happily-ignorantly behind....

the next yr

i was doing ok...surviving from my extra study's from the yr before.....and skipping many classes....and not paying attention in the ones i did attend......this made my teacher believe that i was too smart and not interested...so she offered to let me skip a yr.....i still wasn't soo sure...so i said i'd think about it...cos i thought it mite be too hard and i'd die....

so...i few weeks later i told her that i'd do it.....buh i think she forgot...

cos the 2 other girls in my class that were trying to skip....went straight to yr 10 the next yr and i am still in yr 9....and even they thought i'd be going with them...

and now

i am stuck with the little yr 9's and smart-arse yr 8's that have gone a yr too many up.

and i have the strict-ess teacher that vince [yr 11] has ever encountered...

and she won't let me skip a yr..

cos my marks are a steady B+

because my knowledge from yr 7 is running out

and because i hate her soo much

i cannot concentrate

the hate

is everywhere

....I love the beatles

i want everything the beatles...and a bigger room to put it all on display ^____^

i shall go now

hopefully not too long until i next do an entry

YOUR MASTER