i'm only sleeping

alot of bumm stuff has been happening

maybe it's the way i've been brought up...like azn's point of view of speaking back to adults.

so wenever i get told off i don't bother trying to explain or anything

and i guess it'll be alrite at home...but i found that at skool 2dai i didn't even bother to explain to ms washfold [art teacher] wat was happening with my painting. this was her comment on 2dai on progress:

Has been working well in class but I feel like there was not enough development of ideas. The final painting needed more detail.
24/8/07: sat doing work for another subject.

erm....alot of bum-feelings between me and my dad lately...and 2nite with both my parents

i remember wenever i got bum-feelings i'd come here and ramble on and on....

but i don't do it anymore cos....

well if you were being told off....and you aren't gonna be able to stand up for urself....so don't bother to say anything......so then no point in listening.....but there is no way you could block it all out

so i know basically wat happened.....but...trying to not listen....so it goes in.....and then it's all blurry....

plus why would you wanna remember it all

bad vibes

go away

yeh so no point in writing about exactly wat happened

but it's not a good thing...i should remember all these things so later on i can just pull it out of my pocket ....

like wen my grandma came over she was asking about anything that we weren't happy about....and all i would be able to think of is not being able to go out....

and my older brother once complained about mum....and there was a great deal of stuff that happened between me and my mother by then....but i couldn't remember...so wen they all turned to me to prove that she was being a little psycotic....well all i could remember was that once she was spazzing over me wanting to get a black swimsuit.....

which isn't a big deal

this time...between me and my father

i am absolutley 100% sure.....that i am being wronged

i am totally innocent

my mum says that he'd been having a bad day cos of his family issues.....

but just because of that.....i was told off....and smaked...and grounded for all life from watching any tv or movies....apparently it applied to the whole family but him...

but brian doesn't watch tv [at ALL] and my mum just joins my dad sometimes [and i don't think he could ground her].....so it's just meeeeeeeee

and i am obsessed with movies

not as bad as music

my mother noes that...so she always threatens with music

oh...

the computer is now right next to my parents room

and the walls are really thin

so putting the music...well not REALLY loud....but....louder than i usually would at this time of day.....

2morrow am going to library in the morning....

coming bak and going to knox to get melody a last minute present [not me...julia!] and to shop for me....clothes and jb

thinking of finding a 'best of' of bob marley

and then after that.....melody's party

did plan to make a cake cos my aunty is coming [which i haven't seen in agess] and cos my mum said she was craving cupcakes....

well oh....i'm going to the library....

looks like no cakes for you

so sorry

.

there is this line in this beatles song, i'm only sleeping. 'most people think i'm lazy. well i don't mind. cos i think they're crazy' something along the lines of that...i heard it last nite and it just sorta stuck in my head

the beatles forever

will never get sick of the beatles

ever ever ever

or right...

i'll get a pick of the latest tshirt i've done up.

eh excited to publish so the world can see the shirt....so will publish now