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some idiot threw the wedding cake last night

for most of the others it was a very good night

we were finishing early, surely going to be done by midnight

but then a stupid drunk decides to pick up the very expensive wedding cake and throw it around

then of course some other drunks thought it funny and everyone's having a cake fight

then the party was over

my mum, the sympathetic person that she is, actually gave the bride and groom a discount and made them quickly leave before the manager of the reception found out [and let them go through the discussions the next day instead of ruining their wedding day]

then got us to clean up the mess

scrap off the cake on the dance floor, then mop it off

and the rest of us with ice buckets of hot water, on our knees rubbing the carpet with napkins

then the manager comes out in the middle 'WHAT IS THIS?!'

it was quite scary

we had to stay back an extra hour because of that

half of the waiters were attending a wedding the next day, and i'm working again at that wedding

i didn't know i would tire so much, if i did, i would have put myself at a closer table.

my tables sucked

i had one table, which were a bunch of young people [tho older than me] that drank constantly and there was a particular girl who kept yelling at me for more beer and eating everyone's food

so, i was carrying a six pack of beer over from the par to the opposite side of the room between every course

the other table was bigger, the actual table was unnaturally bigger

which is good

and the people were older

which is good cos they don't drink alot and they are calmer

but they kept asking for stuff

like a lady came and changed to that table and i had to get a chair and setting and everything for her

and i took a while since i had to clear some plates and stuff

but then after i went through the trouble of grabbing a chair and finding a cover and everything i find that she's already grabbed a chair from another table

and they ate bloody slow

people would wander off and the people remaining wouldn't let me take away their food or the others would just sit there with the food half eaten saying they're not finished

how do they expect me to keep up if they won't finish eating so i can pack it up and bring out the next course while having to grab tonnes of beer and collecting empty bottles AND being on the other side of the room from both the kitchen and bar?

anyway

hoping today will be brilliant

and we've got lots of waiters attending so that will be interesting

it's my old neighbour's wedding, will also be able to see the girl who used to cut our hair!

on friday [boxing day] me and my brother planned to wake up at 6 and leave the house at 6:30 to be at chadstone by 7am.

but

we slept in till 6:30, left at 7 and got there at 7:30

which was still decently early

first shop i went into was jigsaw

i love their stuff

and it was 50% off everything!

i got a belt for my mum, which i quite like, if she doesn't want it i want it, and i purple shirt for myself

was tempted to get a blue dresss with gold patterns, and lots of the coats were beautiful...ahh but i thought 'this is only the first shop! better save the spending for other potentially better sales'

didn't go to many shops

after jigsaw i had a look in kookai, tried some dresses on, moved on to myer

the dress i had been wanting to get since last month wasn't there anymore, but it's ok, it wasn't that great

i found another dress for $60 [previously $200], a review cardigan, some shorts, a few tshirts

thats from myer

the lines pissed me off

had to line up to try stuff on and to pay

lined up once to pay, finally got there and the lady says i have to go to another counter cos they couldn't take off the little thingy on the review cardigan

so i had to line up at another counter with an even longer line

and it was stupid

then had to line up again wen i went downstairs to try on stuff and to pay

finally got some bathers

got it from jetty surf

i hate surf shops

the people there are annoying

with their ruffled hair, flip flops and surfy attitude

while lining up

a whole group of people cut in by making a new branch in the line

pissed me off

left my brother to pay for it while i went to look at a shoe shop

found some shoes that i liked

tony bianco, $80

but decided to stick to my previously chosen pair in knox

also got something from dangerfield for $40

it's a playsuit

thoe i didn't know it at the time, i thought it was a shirt or a short dress

took me a while to figureout why i couldn't fit through the opening

bought some creams and stuff from l'occitane for my aunty

had lunch and went home

slept

it was only around 11 by that time

woke up and pushed my older brother to take me to knox

there i bought some sandals from betts

then went to myer

where my brother bought some belts while i looked through the suspenders

i have decided

i want white 25mm y-shaped suspenders

then did a quick scan of the big leather bags

tried on all the hats and bought one

bought a country road bag for brian [side bag, don't even THINK of those big sausage ones]

and then we went home

tired

julz's birthday party tomorrow

jade's masquerade party on saturday

Another Email and More

Hi Jo
no jonny hasn't changed his mind about the business, it's still a drag! but i've thought a little more on the subject of our business. i think what i'm uncomfortable with is that if we sell it, there will be someone else working under our family name. i'd prefer if we just shut it down leaving it a memory that we can reminisce back on.
don't worry about the knitting lessons, there probably won't be any time!
there's a dance called Ska? i know of ska music but i really can't imagine the dance that would go with that!
i haven't really gotten to the stage of going to art exhibitions, being able to look at a piece and making any comments past 'nice' or 'interesting'. i went to the art deco exhibition with the school this year, i liked that, i think it's knowing the reasoning and constraints behind the art that interests me. i haven't really picked a category of art that i like, but i guess i have a bit of a tendency to lean in the direction of prints.
i saw the mamma mia movie and i loved it! i plan to buy it sometime when the dvd gets cheaper. yesterday i finally bought the La Vie En Rose dvd! i haven't watched it yet but i'm in the middle of Pan's Labryrinth, mum got hooked and is making me wait to watch it with her!
about our canberra trip
could you help me out by giving a few pointers on what to pack?
mum says that there probably won't be anyone able to pick us up from the airport, so i'll be looking for a way to get to the glen waverley train line. feels much more exciting than just being picked up by mum! so once we get to melbourne, will you be coming over to our place or going to settle down...where will you be staying in melbourne?
i see you as the writing kind of person, do you keep a journal? there's something about hardcovers that i just cannot resist!
yesterday i went to see an asian doctor with mum and dad in the morning, met up with some friends to go shopping in the afternoon and had dinner and coffee [hot chocolate in my case] with jonny, jo and aunty ratna. by the end of the day i was stuffed on pasta and chocolate! it was raining a little and a bit chilly since jonny had forgotten the coat i had asked to bring for me, but it's easy to forget when huddling up with aunty ratna under an umbrella!
i hope the weather will be good next week!
if it's inconvenient to pick me up and drop me off at the airport i'm alright to take public transport and do a little walking if you'd just tell me the way. there's something exciting about the thought of being in a new place and getting lost [if you ignore the whole dark alleyway, drugs and rape side of it!]
seeing you even sooner

jess.i'm a bette davis fan

and now, some points i left out of my email to my grandma!

the dvds i bought yesterday:
la vie en rose
the little mermaid trilogy
singing in the rain
greys anatomy [first season]

it was a bit of a quest looking for la vie en rose! the first jb i went to was out of stock [as well as black books] and then brittany and julia left me with another 2hrs to wander around till jonny would get to the city

so i decided to just go a-walking and try and stumble apon the dvd jb shop...in the rain

then i needed to pee

so i went into myer...and walked and walked without finding the toilets

asked a lady with a european accent in the beauty section for the general direction of the toilets

it was upstairs

of course

and for some reason, everytime i passed the entry alarms for any department and shop, in AND out, the alarm would go off

which delayed me even longer since i was too scared to pass a particular alarm

then once i got sick of wander around for the long-awaited stumble

i went into melbourne central looking for someone with a friendly face to ask directions

...took me a while

i went into quite a few shops suspiciously looking at the stock while trying to get the courage to ask, then walking out with my alarm-setting-off-bag of goodies

then i finally decided to ask a random indian guy in one of those booths in the middle of the...walky-area

ends up, i just had to go up the stairs [which lead to the exit] turn right, and walk up past the traffic lights

ahh i was so close

found la vie en rose

and the little mermaid trilogy

but damnit black books was also out of stock

this means i'll have to pay a visit to knox every week until i find that box set!

got sunnies today

oroton too

free too

lol it was 'free' cos my parents had built up points or something...medicare...i don't know

but i got an eye chek, and my eyes are perfectly healthy

but not brian's! his show signs of possible future deteriation

hahahahahahahahaha

sigh....there's something about glasses that attract me too....

shame & vanity

i love working at the weddings

and although today we had 3 weddings and mum had long in advance booked all the waiters [which included me] to work 0n this particular day

and although my mum was very stressed about today, and allocated me the job of paying the waiters at the end of the night

i had to pull out at the last minute

because i look like a burn victim

and although i can take the shame of the staring eyes while buying groceries and going to the library

i cannot go to a formal event

and serve food

i feel very bad for wat i've done

so i will spend my day at home cleaning up the house

and dabbing my face with a cool wet towel

Blistering Blisters

my first blisters since i can remember!

got two

on both my pinky toes

it's painful

i wore heels two days in a row

not even full days

wore it yesterday 6hrs

and it was painful after a while, rest of day it hurt

but then the next morning it was ok

then i put them heels on again

silly me

hurt straight away, but no time to change outfit, would miss bus

so wore that for like 2-3hrs

and now i have blisters

that hurt wen anything touches/brushes against it

i don't know how to treat blisters

maybe i'll look it up

got work tomorrow

walking...

feet...

lol

stopped drinking the asian herbal medicine for around a month

and my skins gone bleh again

it feels terrible

atleast, while i had brilliant skin i cherished it

it felt good to wake up every morning and see some nice un-lumpy and un-red skin that felt HEALTHY

sometimes i think that once i find a new treatment for my skin my body slowly gets accustomed to it and then grows resistant to it

so while it mite work at the start it gradually becomes useless

lets hope thats not wat has happened to the latest treatment

cos i really believed this one to be a winner

hope it's all just because i was slack

although that would mean that i would have to buy this $80 of grain for the rest of my life

which i wouldn't mind, if i don't turn out to be a pov artist

and then i'd have to hope that the doctor stays in practice [since they make the medicine there on the spot] for ever

sleepy

gotten into the habit of staying up late, waking up early and sleeping during the day [nap]

so i will refrain from saying anything interesting and just...sleep

Through The Grapevine

sunday morning

me and brian were sleeping

and a fat fly flew into our room

buzzing

woke us both up

then we went back to sleep

i had a strange dream

it was like a movie

a bit like day after tomorrow

the earliest thing i can remember is my standing on a pier kind of thing, looking out at another island kind of place, like another city basically, and there were these dark clouds, lightning, thunder and torrents of rain coming down onto it

and it was strange cos the clouds were directly above it and very distinctly contrasting to the weather around it

where i was it was all sunny and there were seagulls and everything

and i got really scared

i had this feeling, i knew, that i'd survived one of those before and i knew, like a fact known by everybody, that it was coming to us next

and there was a moment where i was frozen and there was that whole slow motion-mode going on

with all the voices around me echoing

cos no1 else had noticed it

and then suddenly everyone was aware of it, and running

someone pulled me into a kind of shack by the pier

a little room with two beds in it and these two strange looking girls

and then there were these people walking past, like a kind of special organisation that were discussing, right outside the shak, how to best act in the face of the storm

they had stupid ideas like leaning a piece of wood across our door, it didn't even cover it fully

we came up with a better idea, i think it was something about sealing everyone in completely like silicon in the gaps and stuff

so we sneaked out past the people outside

and then i suddenly broke down

i was thinking that i'd already been brave once, survived it once before, why should i have to go through it again?

i ran, hysterically, to some kind of really posh hotel

snuck into the one of the pent houses or something

now the rest i can't really remember

but my plan was to hide out there

don't think it went well

didn't remember the dream until a light-bulb moment in the car

hmm

bought jasmine some perfume from body shop once for her b'day

she's never used it

but the other day i used it to the formal

i like it, cinnamon spice

wonder if she'll give it to me ^____^

wanna do some prining this holidays

tho only if i get screen printing equipment, will never got back to the sponge!

theres a shop in box hill north where the school gets their stuff from, had a look at the catalogue

pretty expensive!!

thinking of going to bridge road to get a whole bunch of the cheap singlets we found before and printing a whole lot of my old designs and giving them to my aunty to give to my cousin in vietnam

while doing my folio i got so sick of screen printing

never wanted to see a screen and squeegee again

but now i crave it

i need it!

how i wish i didn't have to do graphics [vcd] next year, and that instead i was doing art

then i could explore etching, lithography and wood cuts

but

not gonna give up on vcd!

i got VG for my lit. comparative as well!!!! [and it's jen at the beach!]

Step on a Crack & Break your Back

orientation day was today

the food tech 20 minutes was really motivating

well the teacher didn't do anything to make it motivating, but just thinking about all the things i could do got me all excited

i'm thinking of doing an english tea theme

and i've already got this little book for my folio

and then there was....

20 minutes for vcd

sounds annoying already

then

i had a gap for 3 sessions

but followed julia into her further maths session

was really just three men boasting about their accomplishments and trying to make their view points and teaching techniques known

so glad i'm not doing further next year

found Ms Price and got my comparative sac and exam back

got a VG for my exam, which means the two highest marks i've gotten this whole year are the marks i got for my mid year and end of year exams

i must do well in exam conditions

i also collected jinali's comparative

jinali always gets better then me, which i usually understand cos she lets me skim over hers and she makes good points

i read her comparative and i re-read mine and i reckon i did pretty well, i'm really proud of the last two analysis' i've done

after that i had the last session of the day, literature

sounds good

the creative sac in unit4 sounds like it's gonna be difficult and stressful

looking forward to reading some D.H Lawrence

anyway

got home

went out again to the grocery to buy some meat for dinner and shouted mum and brian to happy cup

then had a nap

woke up, felt rushed

so hurredly ironed some of mum's pants and waiter-uniforms

then got ready for the formal

finally finished and realised it was barely even 5:00

....meeting at melody's house at 6:30 -________-

so now i'm sitting her all pretty and made up...hoping my dress isn't wrinkling on the computer chair

wats great about this dress is that if it's wrinkled, you just hang it, and they all slowly dissappear

amazingly convenient

i think my shoes have stretched

their kinda big and slip off wen i walk

practiced walking around the house...

forshadowing embarrassment

definintely there

my older brother got this job he's been going for a while!

it's a government job in canberra, so he'll be going there for orientation in two weeks

which is around the time i'm going, so hoping for a kind of clash there

and then he'll be moving to canberra in february

very happy for him

damn, still not even 5:30....

i was going to write a blog entry

but then jinali started talking to me on msn

so now i'm all type-rambled out

oh well...

maybe tomorrow, if i haven't done anything new i can write about wats been happening the last week

Bookmarking

http://www.nikkifarquharson.com/

i would just bookmark this page but brian has this thing for repeatedly resetting the computer and all it's settings

so i will leave it here

it will be very safe

unlike the blogs/deviant arts

stencil pages

and download pages

that i have previously bookmarked

Poppy Pop Art

yes it is funny how as monica put it; my blog has become a gathering place for those who should be studying

i am majorly screwed

so badly, that there is not enough time to ramble about all the reasons why

just wanted to show something i found interesting:part of Andy Warhol's last cycle, 'The Last Supper (Dove)'

fact: andy warhol was an open gay, and a closet catholic

funny

quote!

'What's great about this country is that America started this tradition where the richest consumers buy essentially the same things as the poorest. You can be watching TV and see Coca Cola, and you know that the President drinks Coca Cola, Liz Taylor drinks Coca Cola, and just think, you can drink Coca Cola, too. A coke is a coke and no amount of money can get you a better coke than the one the bum on the corner is drinking, All the cokes are the same and all the cokes are good. Liz Taylore knows it, the President knows it, the bum knows it, and you know it. - Andy Warhol

btw, finally bought a dress for the formal today

which is part of why i'm screwed

had ONE day to study for my yr12 studio exam and for methods exam

and spent more than half of it out shopping and eating yum cha

the stupidity of me

'Like most intellectuals, he's intensely stupid'

i only wrote that last entry this morning

and already, comments!

must be exams

they push students to read random blogs

anyway

was supposed to study for exams today

spent like 2.5hrs studying at the library

methods

[although methods exam isn't till wednesday]

and left literature [tomorrow] and studio art [yr12 subject] till last

we will never learn

then spent the rest of the day watching movies ['chicago' and 'dangerous liaisons'], eating, getting stressed over stupid pimples and of course thinking of how i should be studying

but the movies just went for longer than expected...

anyway

got on to do that last minute studying for literature

we've gotta do two analytical pieces

one on three unknown passages from 1984

and one on a chosen passage from our chosen book [that we used in a previous comparative piece] which will be worth less marks

i am stressed because we only have 1.5hours for this

wen usually, for one piece we have from 2 to 4 periods [100min - 200min]

and now we have TWO pieces with even less time

and the stupid yr10s [my class] have an extra week to prepare

and since the majority of my class is yr10s, our teacher didn't start prepping us for the exam until the last day for yr11s

it's alright for jinali [my fellow yr11] since she doesn't really care and is focusing all her energy on studio art

but i'd LIKE to do well in all

tho i probably won't

since i'm only up to chapter 5 in methods

and haven't even looked at general standard

or vcd

and just skimmed through one booklet for studio today

i think it'd be better if we could type up our literature exam

or maybe not

and the other thing about the yr10s,

noeing them

they'll probably have the smaller part of the exam [the one with the known passage] all written up and memorised so that the only thing they'd have to worry about is the one on 1984

bugger their nerdy-ness

andd

i still don't know exactly which part of my book is my passage

since jinali hasn't replied

so i'm just going to assume

and get some notes done

even tho we're not allowed to bring any notes in

then i will read over my george orwell notes again

before i go to sleep

hopefully i don't sleep in tomorrow

for the formal

i'm thinking of buying a simple black dress that i saw at myer

very plain

but i don't know if i can be bothered looking any more

and maybe i can spice it up with some heels

i don't know if that works or not

uh oh...crick in neck......

also got a toothache again

not good conditions to be in 8hrs before the exam period

gotta...study

Nothing

had a dream;

mum took me looking for houses

we went to look at some japanese caravans

met basically all of the waiters that worked last night there

one of the waitresses had one of those things...fluffy tubes you stick your hands in...

one of the waiters was in a band

had an argument with brian about people dying at school

then somebody [a guy that brian occasionally played games with] died at school, i think it was an axe

went to aunty's house

she was selling clothes

found two things i liked

but couldn't reach

she made everyone try these very painful shoes on

i sat with people that were my friends

i think kirsten dunce was one of them

one of my very good friends, a lesbian, started kissing me

i kissed back but there was nothing, it was painfully empty

but then i acted flippantly like 'didn't feel anything, oh well'

she got upset

then some guys came and started teasing us for not appreciating all the cheap clothes

then i was talking to one of my guy friends [i have guy friends?]

when i was suddenly flicking through the dream as if on a dvd

there was a random music clip

a girl was singing, wearing a green wrappy thing [around waist] with white shorts underneath and there was that fake wind blowing into her hair and stuff

thats all i remember

i need to study for my literature exam [tomorrow] but i'm not sure which passage i'm doing, i've asked jinali who has it highlighted in her book but she hasn't replied

also need to study for my yr12 exam and methods. they're my top priorities

then there's maths standard and vcd

but i'm too tired from yesterday to do anything

i bought Sabrina on friday [audrey hepburn and Humphrey bogart]

haven't watched it yet

my aunty came in the morning to return these other dvds she'd borrowed, i was half awake in bed, she took Sabrina

didn't really want to lend it out till i'd had it for a while...

i hate shopping for something to wear to the formal

it's a pain

fallacies and exaggerations

i didn't go to school today

and i didn't sleep till late last night

it was too hot

and the importance of the work i had been avoiding all day finally sunk in

so i got up and did some reading on Jane Eyre after reading quite a bit of Wuthering Heights

this morning me and brian slept in

and since i don't have studio art anymore [double period today] and since in methods we're just going over practise exams [also a double period] and since we never do any work in standard [and cos we've already done our topic test - 1period today] and since i'm not really enjoying/doing any work in vcd anymore, well there wasn't any point in going to school for that one period anyway

so i stayed home to do some studying [for exams and sacs]

started off with pride and prejudice, but then sparknotes [the site i was using] started to screw up and the pages won't load, so i began reading up on bill henson for Studio art

before doing any reading up on the topic, i'd planned to take the positive perspective and discuss why bill henson's work is art and not any kind of child porn.

but then i started to read into it and found many opinions that claimed the opposite and it started to make sense. for example; 'artists can do whatever they like if they lived on a deserted island, but not if they lived in a respectable community' and 'bill henson has pushed the boudaries and understandably others are pushing back'.

i have been to a bill henson exhibition, and i found nothing close to porn. i admit, a few had a kind of sexual charge to it, but it was a little bit confusing since there was no obvious source. there was a particular series that i liked, 'adrift in the crowd' i think it was. it showed how in a crowd some people stand out and others don't and that it is similar to how we can shine one minute and then be totally invisible the next.

but wat i was saying was that, at this point, i'd figured that there had to be some really scary-child-porn photos out there that i had just not seen. why else was there such a controversy on this subject? so i looked up his photos on some gallery websites.

and didn't find anything

so then i was aggravated

and i was back supporting bill henson

a short while later

i searched bill henson on google images and found a few that were kinda disturbing

but i'm just not sure if it is enough to move my belief in freedom of art.

is bill henson a glorified paedophile? is he a smart publicist seeking infamy through controversy? or is he just an artist doing what artists do?

confused, and sparknotes still won't load, so i think i'll read some more Wuthering Heights, maybe nap

btw, watched another bette davis movie yesterday; Dark Victory. Don't know how Gone With the Wind overtook it.

shopaholic?

not good

i've become a shopaholic

it's bad

i noe that the money i have is only because i was lucky enough to have parents that will employ me. but unless i decided to one day take over the business full time, the money is not stable.

so if i become a shopaholic

i will run out of money

eventually

either i will keep spending until i run out

or i will get so used to spending all the money that i won't be able to stop even without a source of income

i have thought up two possible solutions;

1. get a job
2. slowly reduce my shopping intake

really only the second one seems possible

so

i need rules

starting today [24th october] till 24th november, i will not buy anything

except for work shoes

and anything for the formal

....oh no

i keep thinking up other things that should be on that 'except' list

maybe...maybe this one month thing is too big a feat for me

maybe

lets make it

this upcoming week [sunday 26th till saturday november 1st] i will not spend any money, the two above being the only exception

so it's either that

or

i make a weekly budget?

but then i don't noe wen i will stumble upon a bargain!

a monthly budget sounds better

haggled with jinali over the school-monthly budget:

Jess. says:
$100 a school month?
:: [nali]. says:
$50
Jess. says:
50!?
Jess. says:
$75
:: [nali]. says:
70!!!!!!!!!!!
Jess. says:
ok $70 but no lower!
Jess. says:
no wait wait!
:: [nali]. says:
its a deal
:: [nali]. says:
done n dusted
Jess. says:
noooooooooooooo!
Jess. says:
but wat if i find a fantastic deal like my super boots!
:: [nali]. says:
DON"T BUY
Jess. says:
hmm....i could carry the extra over onto the next month
Jess. says:
or the last
Jess. says:
i think this sounds good
:: [nali]. says:
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
:: [nali]. says:
SAVE
:: [nali]. says:
SAVEEEE
Jess. says:
carry over!
:: [nali]. says:
NO
Jess. says:
whhhyyyy
:: [nali]. says:
causeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Jess. says:
no! i'm sticking to $70 a month...with carry overs!
Jess. says:
:P
Jess. says:
actually
Jess. says:
since it's school months i will make it
Jess. says:
$50 a month with carry overs!
:: [nali]. says:
one day, u'll regret when u see. that u have a thousand pairs of shoes in ur room and loads of clothes and dvds. and u'll think "did i really need all this shit?" HUH HUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:: [nali]. says:
ayo
:: [nali]. says:
bad jess
Jess. says:
you have a point
Jess. says:
but i can't just go cold turkey!

and that's just on the school months

wat about the holiday months? no limits?

jinali suprisingly agrees:

:: [nali]. says:
holidays is okai. i guess. but u still gotta control urself, don't let urself loose again!!!!!!!! u animal!!!!

so it is settled

during a school month i must stick to the budget of $50 a month, carry-ons allowed, and during a holiday month the budget does not apply but caution is recommended.

lol had a bit of fun with that last bit ^_____^

you noe wat sucks about this plan?

i don't actually get to put it into action until february since this month is almost over [and i think it might have been a holiday month anyway...did the term start before or after the start of october?] and next month is a holiday month as well as the next few.

plus christmas is coming and we gotta buy presents ><

so, from now on, i will be recording every single thing i spend

maybe i should buy a little pocket book for it!

tempting.....

met up for book club today

most expensive book club meeting yet

couldn't resist buying a beatle picture book and two dvds for meself

and bought some presents for melissa

spelt her name wrong on the inside cover

but reckon i covered it up pretty well

met fizz, it's been ages

kinda strange, but felt a kind of attraction?

not so sure about it, like exactly wat it was, but it was definitley there

dwlded the phantom of the opera soundtrack [movie]

finally able to listen to songs that frequently get stuck in my head, huge relief

bought today, first season of sex and the city and the first volume of the 3 stooges box set.

in the middle of making more shortbread biscuits

must bake...

Teachings

today i discovered 'Art for Art's sake'

"...a philosophy that the intrinsic value of art, and the only "true" art, is divorced from any didactic, moral or utilitarian function..."

how did i happen to stumble apon this?

well 10cc of course

dwlded 'the very best of 10cc' and there was this song called 'art for art's sake' so i looked it up

'...Like walking in the rain and snow...When there’s nowhere to go..."

10cc - The Things We Do For Love

Preparation

this weekend we've got weddings on both saturday and sunday

so i'm working on saturday [depressingly in the kitchen]

and on sunday i'm at home

i'm hoping, praying, that there will not be any weekend hw

so i can iron everyone's summer clothes, laze about eating and watching stuff

i've prepared pretty well i think

i've got 8 movies from the library

one that i bought

3sailor moon discs and buffy

it's quite a variety too

comedy, romance, coming-of-age..although now action.....black and white, old yet in color, and relatively new

it will be a good day ^___^

now, biography on charlotte bronte -__________-

I Can Do It

Final Piece 1: 'Stereotypes at Work'

Final Piece 2: 'Judge a Book by it's T-Shirt'

[click on to enlarge...quality is better too]

i made everything myself, except for the cotton t-shirts (and i didn't make the wood or the nails or paint or anything)

but i mean that i screen printed all the shirts from my own stencils of phrases and characters that i created

and me and dad and brother put the wood together

and the background pattern i rollered on individually.

Listening to: The Producers Soundtrack...'you see rio i see jaiiilll' 'we can do it' 'i can't do it' 'we can do it' i cannot cannot cannot cannot do it cos i noe it's gonna faiiillll'

^______^

bought Funny Face yesterday for $8

going to the beach tomorrow after school for nat's birthday!

emails

brittany,

i have no idea about friday! i've sent an offline msg to emma and you about it, but obviously because you guys aren't on...there's been no reply. gotta noe soon, cos if there isn't then i could do something else. ...your comments are super! and btw, i sent an email to Johnny Cupcakes and he replied; kind of a strange mix of exciting and intimidating.

jess.

and since we're in a bit of a email mood, here's a longer than usual email i sent to my grandma last night:

Dear Jo,

you're one crazy granny you know? you do so many wildly exciting and cool things, i don't think i could keep up!

i've been taking driving lessons lately, it's been decent. i'm learning manual and at first it was pretty simple, then when the thinking part comes in, it got a bit tricky, but then it went smooth again and i hope it stays that way! it's handy and slightly exciting, but public transport still looks good to me.

although i've handed my folio in last wednesday it still seems kinda hectic because me and two other friends are going to be entering our folios into Top Arts. one friend is taking it easy and doesn't seem to be too fussed, the other is just franticly [sp?] running around trying to make everything perfect although i reckon she's just making it more stressful than it has to be...it kinda rubs off on me. the last week i've been trying to get good photos of my final pieces, trying to figure out exactly what the application means with their vague terms and conditions, choosing only 10 pages out of my multiple folios to send in and worrying about how to write emails to big companies/brands asking for copyright clearance.

when i'm not doing that, well i'm being super lazy watching Buffy dvds, sleeping and reading books. i don't think i've quite balanced my life properly.

i've just recently read Pride and Prejudice, i bought the book and its a beautiful leather bound version which i love, i'm a sucker for pretty things. anyway, the actual novel, i'm not quite sure what i think of it, the whole time i was reading it i just kept seeing scenes from the Keira Knightley movie or even just the actors playing out bits that hadn't been put into the movie; i wasn't really able to read the book and actually feel Jane Austen's writing style. i guess that's what happens when you read the book of a movie that you've already seen much too many times.

so the reason why i read Pride and Prejudice was for school, we're doing a comparative analysis and we get to pick our subjects. initially me and my partner were thinking to compare Pride and Prejudice to Bridget Jones' Diary [movie] but then i've just realised that it might be a bit difficult comparing a movie to a novel and, what is there to compare except the modern interpretations of Jane Austen's story? so i've thought to change it to a comparitive between Pride and Prejudice and Jane Eyre. i'm thinking this will be easier since we've both already read Jane Eyre and since they're both novels, with distinct female main characters and well i guess we could compare the two authors views on love, marriage, family and social standing? but i've still to put the idea to my friend. have you read either novels? what do you think?

do you remember me as tom-boyish? i think it's...interesting to think about the phases that you've gone through, and then to think about the phases that you could possibly get into. have i mentioned that i can knit and sew? although, it is only the most basic technique of knitting...the knit ^^ and with the sewing i can only do simple things like sewing up pant legs and other random things. i rememer you taught me how to knit once. although i totally forgot how to after you'd left. i ended up going to this lunch time thing that one of the teachers held back in...year9? it was very awkward because no one had shown up but me and the friends that i had dragged along, and the teacher was well known for her strict attitude and having a tendency to turn red and blow up. so i only went once, then kind of just figured out the rest by myself, consequently, i only know the one technique and nothing of the others.

i've written quite a bit about myself, i think it's because with all the panicing and the couch potato-attitude i haven't been able to write much in my blog so i have this pent up need to just...type.

i should go now; sleep good, sitting-in-the-glow-of-a-

computer-screen-at-almost-11pm bad

goodnight jo,
jess.

and now my font has gone weird

but anyway

...damn

lost my trail of thought while right in the middle of it...

gonna go......

yesterday i worked on a boat

it was the first time anybody had asked for my number

it was definitley heaps of fun

minimum work load

plus tip

yesterday was good

i'd bought this dress that was on sale at the glen on thursday....originally $70 but i got it for $5 [tho duno who would spend $70 on it...its too simple and plain...nothing special)

it's got green and white vertical lines and it kinda reminds of primary school uniform dress

it's got two vertical straps [thick], and it goes in under the boobs and has fabric that you pull back to tighten.

it was too long [middle shins?] so i sewed it up the other night [by hand because i had nothing else to do] so it's around my knees

it's very cute/playful

tho it doesn't look great by itself ...probably cos of the addition of big shoulders and underarm flab

so i thought maybe to wear a shirt underneath...but yesterday i just wore it with one of those half cardigans [cream coloured] and it looked great

i was just a bit iffy about showing all that leg...but i guess i'll get over it

anyway...wore that to jap school....was fun

gonna do oral next week

and then went home [reluctently changed out of dress into uniform] and went to work

...was gonna get more into how great working on the boat was...and the number asking bit

but gotta take in the clothes, eat lunch, and do some errands

oh well

Grilled Chicken and Orange Rice

btw,

since we've got this weekend and the next off [wedding-wise] my mum offered to make something yum

and i suggested grilled chicken and orange rice, which i love

and then i remembered what happened last time mum made it,

well Heath Ledger died

i remember eating grilled chicken and orange rice and waiting for the news special to come on tv. at first i watched from the kitchen and then once i'd finished eating i moved into the lounge where my mum sat sighing, '...so young'

so now

i will always remember that the day my mum made Grilled Chicken and Orange Rice was the day that Heath Ledger died

...or was the day i first heard the news that Heath Ledger had died.

in other news,

my parents are getting supersticious about our new house

since we've bought it, a tree in the templeton house fell and broke the fence, the little water fountain we have in our lounge room broke and....something else.....

but they're worried that it's a bad sign

and now i'm getting a bit jittery

i'm kinda supersticious

enough to be slightly worried.

Lists

i have been out two days in a row, wearing clothes with a tag still attached to it.

yup

embarrassing

especially when they have all those red stickers on them showing how much it's been reduced.

dodgy.

this holidays has actually been pretty good so far

tho it's only half way through

on the first weekend i worked and my parents bought a house on the saturday.

monday we visited my grandma

tuesday i went to see display homes with my parents and brian

wednesday the whole family went over to our templeton house to do some gardening

thursday i worked with my dad and brian to make my shelf for studio art

friday i went to bridge road in richmond with melody and julia for shopping

yesterday we went to see some more display homes and i got a hair cut

today i went to see my grandma again

so i reckon i've been pretty productive

but then i also want to be mindlessly bored

i miss being mindlessly bored with nothing to do

there always seems to be something that i need to do

and i have lists and lists of those things that i need to do

i'm getting sick of those lists

but they don't seem to be able to get organised in my brain, they need to be on paper in thick red/black texta

and here's another list for ya...

my plans for this week:

Monday - going to school to work on my studio folio and then to the glen to buy some materials for studio (namely; nice wrapping paper and wallpaper paste)
Tuesday - going to a library (either Glenwaverley or Nunawading) to study for a japanese speaking outcome with my role play partner (elly)
Wednesday - going shopping with brittany, emma and possibly dianne. will not be purposely looking for clothes (since i've already bought a decent amount on friday)
Thursday - possibly going to school in the morning (moving my final pieces to school before school starts) then the twins' (including Hayley) birthday party
Friday - nothing solid yet, but i think my dad is planning to bring me back to the asian doctor about my skin...other wise i mite go to school again
The weekend before school starts - nothing planned...tho probably hoping it to stay that way

proud accomplishment: have fought the urge to buy dvds for....1 and a half weeks.

ahh i need to work againnnn

i need money

i need a proper job

proper job....too much fuss!

wedding money isn't frequent enough...not reliable

plus it's kinda degrading to be working for your parents

hm

i've had this ridiculous song in my head for the last few days

smack that

akon

shame.

ever moved your tongue next to your teeth, but not quite touching them, and felt a strangely cold...space?

i felt it....but now i don't

hm

ok i'm bored.

grah

stupid wallpaper

why is it so expensive?!

bum

stupid bum poo

Art

is the ability to see everything when it seems like there is nothing

...otherwise you are just brushed off as being unknowing

[amazing the things that happen in my mind when sitting in the dark by myself]

Dear Aunty

Have a nice flight

enjoy these cookies i made.

Don't bother staying in contact

All About $$

i hate having money

i hate that there are people that don't have money

and i hate that people care

i hate money

hmm yes it's been more than two weeks since that visit to the asian herbalist

at first my skin went drastically well [to me] then it stayed steady at good...then i think it's slowly getting a bit red again

but...mite be because i missed drinking the grain stuff 2days in a row and the body wash has run out [in the first week] and the face cream is running out

but i reckon he was pretty decent

he said to come back...but i guess we're not

i made yoyos today

tho i had forgotten that aunty ratna was gonna be coming and dropping the kids here while she gets a facial and other pampering things

so i let jaszelle 'help' a bit...tho wen it came to rolling the dough into balls i kinda just made her play with a lump of it....

then mum took jaszelle out [thankgod] and we were left with zach who wasn't as bad since we could say things that he didn't understand

but then i left two trays in the oven too long and they got a bit over-browned...but in the end it just looks like chocolate yoyos...and they taste about the same

now, zach has been put to sleep and jaszelle hass gone out with mum and aunty for coffee

it's quite...no one wants to wake zach

my mum has always loved french music

i've been slowly [PANIC! phone just rang and i ran to shut it up] getting into it, maybe cos she kept playing it in the mornings while i slept...

anyway...love most of it now...tho i haven't listened to like...french pop or rock or anything...just kinda cafe music

it's really good

the most recent song...that i love the mostest...is from 'Putumayo Presents - Paris'

and it's the first track: 'Au Cafe de La Paix' - Thomas Fersen

it's so happy and the guys has a really throaty voice [which i LOVE]

no i don't know how to say the title...actually the guy just said it...but i've already forgotten...

and i don't noe anything that he's saying...for all i know he could be singing about sex, drugs and flare pants

but, [brittany calling!]....

....

hm....with the pictures of the card i made from my last blog [from a long time ago], wat i meant to say about it before all my words were cut off...was that it was bad bad bad

but thanks for the nice words ^____^

went to an asian doctor on sunday [father's day] about my skin

and he said that my skin will be atleast 50% better in two weeks

so now my dad has come into habit of grabbing my face between his two hands and inspecting my skin every morning

and then asking later on in the evening if i feel any better

hm

skool time

oh bum

i had something to say

that i was slightly excited to say

but i've gone and forgotten

.

well

anyway there was this other thing that happened

i watched 2 eps of buffy today, and then i had a nap

and then i woke up and got on the computer to do some stuff

and then som1 called

and because i was still a bit >< .......[i had a whole heap of other stuff i wrote....really good stuff....and stuff to explain these photos...but something happened and it's all gone...and i will not do it all again cos it will not be as good so yeh....]

the joys of digital photography

wrote this yesterday:

in that dark and scary place right now

i'm not happy with my body

the condition of my skin shames me,

it also makes me physically feel ew and mentally...unconfident

how'd i get into this state of mind?

well it started with that icky, irritating feeling that i get that makes me just...irritated and scratch/ungently rub my face. usually, the only remedy for this irritation is to sleep it off or to have a real good shower.

no, a real-good-face-wash will not suffice, it must be a shower. don't ask me why

so i've had my shower and i've moisturised many layers of moisturising cream. but my face still burns and irritates in a different way, different but if anything, even more irritating. so this is when i sit down, eat my dinner and, feeling guilty, i write a list of things that i should do more to improve my health.

writing this list, i ate alot of food (healthy dinner that i put together myself ^___^) and drank alot of water. too much healthy food and water. so i've managed to make myself feel even more bloated than usual.

so bloated that it hurt.

and all i wanted to do was lay down and make the pain go away but then because i was feeling unusually bloated and fat, i didn't want to lay down after a meal and build up extra fat. so i sat and read some of a Nick Hornby book then started writing a blog entry (bye hand) while watching scrubs.

i feel better now

but i do wish these...attacks (damn word that i'm looking for won't come to me!) of up and down-ness would just stop. i wish it were all uo...or all stable

i have lots more to talk a bout, epiphanies, dvds, the snow, another career alternative, countries, tshirts, etc. but it's too much to write by hand.

it is Buffy time.

so yeh, i'm still not gonna talk about that other stuff now because...i'm tired and i have to do lots of preparation for the creative sac that i have tomorrow (literature)...i thought it was on friday but it is actually tomorrow

but frankly i can't be bothered

i guess it is again...Buffy time.

official rain

for me

it is now officially winter.

not until it rains for a full day, or forces me to walk under an umbrella, is it properly winter.

now i have lots of work to do

LOTS!

weeee

got dvds today

restrained myself

bought 3:

Life is Beautiful

The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy

Scrubs: season2

'friends' was not on sale

and they didn't have the IT crowd or black books

well they had one last box set of black books but i've already got season1 so that didn't help much

the were playing black books on the tv too....i didn't notice till i heard manny saying 'bernard' in the way he does

lots of other stuff was on sale too

i was dizzy

art deco was good

and not good

the whole art deco thing is cool

how modern some of the designs are!

but then because there was so much it got a bit boring

i'm still tired from the trip

came back and helped mum cut a HUGE pot of mushrooms...this is for the 600people wedding on saturday

yeh...will edit my dvd list

Friends is also on sale!

i've gone so crazy i can't feel me feet

...or is it just cold?

AHHHH!

season2 of Two and a Half Men is also on sale!!1

i'm going crazy!

AHHH!

the IT Crowd is on sale at jb!!!

i don't noe if it is in stores of it just is on sale if you buy it online

usually $28.99, now $12.98

that's something dollars and 1cent!!!

must.buy.dvds....

yay!...i hope

it is now 7:15, 3hours after anesthetic and i feel no pain!!

i hope this means that there will be no pain between now and wen it is pulled out

and that i haven't just jinxed myself

am bored...will look for more movies to add to my list

my chin is numb

it feels funny wen i scratch it

the right side of my tongue and lower right cheek is also numb

so if you decided to slap me only on the right side of my tongue i would not feel a thing

...although why you would feel inclined to slap my tongue at all is a mystery

now attempting to eat grilled fish

strange

it's like it's there....and i'm chewing it..

but then i move it to the other side...and it's gonee!

which is dangerous wen you think about the bones

bad news

will be pulling out 3 teeth and possibly getting braces

last week after my visit to the dentist i experienced intense pain until morning

today just as i was about to leave she comes out and says she forgot to mention that i mite experience it again tonight

so right now i'm eating as much as i can...being happy as much as i can....and...should be clearing my bed of all the clothes so that i can just lay in it later

but the suspense!

i wrote a thing in japanese!

it's not really a story...and not really an essay...it's a thing

it's about getting a job

and i'm so proud

not at the content...but at my ability to write long sentences/passages in japanese...

it's so pretty!


gack!

almost swallowed a bone

alright...gonna go and...relish my feeling of numbess

remotely strange?

baked some cookies

last batch in the oven now

went to go get the recipe and found two big packets of my two favourite chip flavours in the cupboard

hm....wat are you hiding mother? secret snacks!?

had another weird dream this morning

although i can't really remember it all

there was one part where my dad was going to give all his jeans away since they didn't fit his belly inside them anymore

oh i'm starting to remember more

i was sitting on the ground in a kind of dark castle and looking through Anais' studio art folio [although...she doesn't actually do studio art so yeh] and it had stacks and stacks of really cool stuff in it

and then this woman with short [shoulder] bouncy blonde hair and tiny spectacles on comes in, sits on the other side of Anais' folio and starts talking to me about my folio

she starts off really nicely...you noe that way people talk before saying something bad

she's like, i've looked at ur folio, and it's really good, lots of this and that.......

and then she says that it's a very positive folio, the way i write/talk about my stuff is really...well i keep complementing myself

she says that they [whoever 'they' are] are worried that when i go out into the world

and i interupt and say that i noe that my stuff isn't really that good to the outside world, but that to me it is good, and that i noe that the world is a much harder judge than myself

she gives me a funny look

then suddenly i'm on the carpet in my lounge room and mum is talkin to the rest of the family in the kitchen about how scared she used to be back wen my dad worked during the day and she'd be at home with us kids...like closing the curtains...not answering the door, pretending not to be home.. [btw it is all true...she's mentioned it many times before]

and then som1 rings our doorbell and we get all freaked out and i go to answer the door...just opening the wooden door a crack...and i see that stuck to the fly-wire door is an envelope, i reach through to grap it and i realise that there's this car on our....cement block that leads to the door? and the headlights are shining so that a silhouette of a man can be seen...and it's freaky cos i'm grabbing at the envelope but it just won't come off the door....i finally get it and lock the door rushedly [is that a word?]

mum is talkin on the phone to som1....talking about how she knows how to use a gun, she'd learnt the basics back wen dad worked during the day...all while i was struggling with the door...which makes everything that little bit freakier

i open the envelope and i take out this book...you noe wen there's so much in a book that the pages kinda boof up from the spine? yeh it was like that. and it seemed much bigger than the actual envelope....

so i start flipping through it and it's like pages from all my folios and some bits from my blog and even conversations i've had with people....as well as msn conversations....and i'm trying to read a certain one that i had with a green-lady...i don't know anything else about her...i think she wore green and had long brown hair....

but the pages kept flipping back and forth and my mind was racing and i couldn't make sense of anything

that's all i can remember

i think there was also this part where someone was talkin to harry potter about being worried about him...like his attitude...and so he had to take care of this little thing...didn't look anything like a house elf but apparently it was....for...i think 36 years...and harry gets annoyed and storms off with the house elf struggling to keep up

i noe there was more..but i've forgotten

i have nothing else remotely interesting happening in my life

Another Dream

yeh i had another weird dream and wrote down some words [not necessarily 'key' words] so that i wouldn't forget

but judging from the huge reaction the last dream retelling i'll leave out the explanation and just leave the words here:

wedding, car, quick lock, miss one, rape, man, footy tickets, embarrassment, awkward hug, nice hug [i clearly remember the nice-ness of this hug...nice broad shoulders too!], confession, anger, oanh [my aunty] ask for 4carat diamond, cake shop, ordered by mum to order the stuff, go to table, me, mum & oanh, decline specialty, waiter pissed, mum&oanh devour, my mouth full of wedding cake, mum compliments carrot cake, i want but there's nomore, they pig down, they want more, book shop, brain-washing-feminists, heath ledger?

wow...guess wat song just came on

Billy Joel - River of Dreams

Another Night

i haven't been blogging lately

partially because i've gotten bak in touch with my grandma via email and that seems to satisfy my typing-thoughts-down needs

and partially because nobody's commenting!!!

so right now, i am delaying the reply to my grandma's last email and letting out all my typing energy here

i'm in the Bee Gees mood:

haha, there's a scary pic for you

since the last blog, which i can't even remember wen it was, i have done many things

i think

it does seem like alot tho

my aunty was having marital problems and came over one saturday

oh i remmeber...it was last saturday, since that was the day i didn't go to japanese skool because i didn't really wanna get up and my mum didn't seem to care

anyway, she came over, without the kids, but with her husbands credit card

and we went to max brenners....had some chocolate and waffers...had alot of male-bashing conversations...brian seemed awkward

then went home to get ready for work, put all the necessary things, like uniform and makeup in mums car and got into my aunty's car to go shopping!

it was a bit scary at first cos her husband had called and she was talking, heatedly, on the phone while driving a manual car

but then it became ok

we went to myer, it stayed open longer than the rest of the centre

so it was me, my aunty and brian in myer...searching for something for my aunty to splurge on, but didn't really need

she got a country road top, an expensive dress/wrap and some shoes; a total of $310

i found something for myself too!

a pair of dianna ferrari boots; knee high, dark brown, with a heel

and it was fantastic because i've found it hard to find any decent boots that fit the contrasting sizes of my feet and..legs...shins?

yup...happy happy....

it was $200 before reduction; got it for $140

then went to work and it was ok...nobody ended up sitting on the whole side which my tables were located...so lots of people were sent over to the other side to help, but i got stuck in the bar with an old man who has suspicious eyes and doesn't talk to me

i think i have/had a crush on som1 new

i thought i was over the damn crushes by now since it's been a while since i've had one...and i do noe everytime that they are useless obessessions...but why do they torture me so?!


my older brother has this close friend, who has this thing for a very pretty waitress....but she doesn't seem to like him bak...and then she started bringing her brother along to work since their mum was getting worried about his life and at the start...i didn't think anything of him

he was just like all the others...those young asians with that stupid hair..except that his face doesn't look like typical asian...kinda looks half

but then on my first day outside, as a waitress....i realised that i did not like him

he was a mean, coccky bum who had no friends

but then we've somehow become friends...ah now that i've gotten to this part i feel really embarrassed

i'm going to move on now...to another subject

i went with my mum to bridge road the other day before going to footscray to get a hair cut

bought a shirt from espirit; $60 down to $7...very happy

didn't like the hair cut at first

the guy, hairdressers husband, dryed it weird, mad e it all bobby and rounddd and straight...

so i thought it was actually gonna always be like that

but then it ends up...it's not!

looks quite similar to wat i had before except shorter...although no1 even seems to be noticing that it even is shorter

i guess not much was taken off the bak...since the bak was always short...but it definitly is different!

so Mamma Mia movie today

loved it

another movie i've seen and loved: Dear Frankie

Casablanca and Gone with the Wind were ok wen watching it but afterwards they really stick in ur head...

ah, i'm bored? this doesn't seem to be as stimulating as it usually is

sunday morning it is

i've just had a weird dream

it was a very long one about many things

it had kungfu dogs, buddhist temples, the mafia, killer sandwiches, heath ledger, cameron diaz and another girl...forgot hu it was, frogs in a pond, crazy traffic, advertisements for nuts, footpaths lit in the night, light posts, crazy sky activity, strange romance, charity....that's all that will come to me now

so like usual, everything is split into sections, like different stories

and i have no idea about order except for the last two

but lets talk about the kungfu dogs, buddhist temples, the mafia and killer sandwiches

so there's me, and two other guys

we're like...super cool kungfu superheroes...i think i had a long stick

and actually i'm not sure if it was me....maybe it was just the girl that was wearing the dress that i was thinking of wearing today and i just watched her the most

any way, we're standing there...looking cool, listening for trouble, and then the girl hears a bell ringing 'a mile away' and starts running...the others follow

there's some trouble at a buddhist temple, all of the dogs have turned into people and are...not killing people cos there was no killing in my dream...just smacking them....

...now i've gone blank

somehow, we've changed characters to a tall guy, walking into this really big asian...temple-like building, but there is apparently a party going on behind the door after the 'reception desk'. and there's this guy sitting behind the desk giving orders...there are some people that need to be killed but they don't want them to be done all at once...i think the guy that they wanted killed last was 'sanders' or something

so he's got this tray of sandwiches and he's showing another tall guy which ones go to who....and then the main character comes up to the desk and watches, then once the first guy goes into the room with the tray of killer sanwiches the guy behind the desk pulls out another tray....but it's a lunch box instead? and then i [main guy] start trying to remember wat goes to who, apparently i've heard it before and am trying to recite it...but there are some extra bits and pieces in there that i don't recall seeing before

the only one that i can remember at the moment is that one of the killer foods is for a telemarketer

i point out that there are some things that should not be there and that maybe it was because it was somebody's lunch box

the guy behind looks frustrated and then...the scenario switches

there's three more to go

i don't know if i can be bothered...i have a lot of hw to get started on

actually the next bit....is actually a continuation of the mafia one...just the same main character

it's got, heath ledger, cameron diaz and another girl....and a whiteboard on wheels, a computer desk chair, a chorus of girls, a piano

so from the temple, the main character guy walks out and meets....one of the girls....i duno actually, it's all a bit complicated, eventually, he ends up at this place where he tells the 2nd girl to go into one room while he goes into the 2nd....and this fat guy comes rushing in with the chorus of girls and starts frantically, madly? telling main character guy about how....either he hasn't been doing much work lately or he has to pay for rent i duno...something like that

but main character guy just brushes him off, pulls of his shirt and goes into the other room

ok so wat's happening is, there is main character guy, with the 2nd girl that he met on the way, with the first girl that he met hiding behind a big whiteboard on wheels and watching from the sides....and there's...me? sitting on a computer chair...actually not a computer chair...just a chair...without a back, but it can turn round and is on wheels....and the first girl sometimes hide behind me too

at this point, i sorta get the impression...like something tells me, that the girl hiding, is cameron diaz, the main character is heath ledger and the other girl...i've forgotten

so i somehow noe that heath ledger is trying to seduce the other girl...and they're dancing and singing and stuff...and the chorus girls come in and play the piano for music and watch on the sides....one of them tries to reveal cameron diaz, but cameron stays put behind that whiteboard

i think that's it for this scenario

the next one is: crazy traffic, advertisements for nuts, footpaths lit in the night, light posts, crazy sky activity, strange romance, charity....somehow linked to the frogs in a pond

i think this part is influenced partially by the little segment of 'the notebook' that i watched yesterday

just, as a foreword...this is a bit embarassing for me ok

so we're at skool, and in this one, i am definitley the main character, for some reason i'm talking to david, my old crush, and he's taking me up and over the stairs that take you from the yr 12 lockerbay and up kinda to the senior skool office, or to the library...

i think we're talkin about a ride home

so we're over the stairs, but instead of the..place that should be there....there is the dock, pier thing from 'the notebook' but with railing around it...and there are a whole lot of parents hanging around there

he's taking me to his parents so he can ask if i can get a lift home

i'm looking around trying to figure out which ones are his parents

and it ends up that his mum looks like wats her name from 'the notebook's mum...except asian....and his dad just looked old, with glasses and asian...maybe like the old noah?

so yeh, i remember thinking while david explains to his mum....i thought that the mum better not think anything funny like we were a couple or anything cos i mean he already has a girlfriend and that i was just getting a lift and that were old friends.....which is weird because we are definitley none of those things in real life

she seems to approve and then we just stand there on the dock looking at the sky, because it is now nighttime and there are stars in the sky, it isn't dark yet, but then for some weird reason it looks a bit fake, the sky, and then suddenly the last of the light goes out like someone had just flicked it off....david puts his arm around me and it doesn't seem like a weird thing.....

the stars do some weird movement....like they were a shell around the earth and it is rotating itself around...really fast....but it's just the stars...

and the sun is still visible...although the sky is dark

i lean my head on his shoulder and he looks down at me,and this is wen i realise, i as in me looking bak on it, that it wasn't david at all...but just a guy....a much taller, much handsome-er looking guy....but it was just something telling me, like how i knew that cameron diaz was hidding behind a whiteboard and heath ledger was seducing a strange woman with song and dance, that it was david

anyway, the sun starts rapidly moving down the sky, like in those cartoons where they try to show that time has gone by....and it is very weird...and unusual in the dream...so it is not a normal thing in this dream world

and then out from under the pier...a vey close friend of mine with another comes sneaking out...i go join them and have a bit of a hissy fit at them for eavesdropping....and i have the image of them sitting underwater on one of those wheels that are usually tied to a tree and swung....and the really really close friend has big curly hair so it's all over the place...

and they tease about david contributing to some charity....as in somehow, the lift home was actually...i remember a number with a 5 in it...like $5000.....

we start walking home...and this confuses me now, because wasn't 'david' going to give me a lift? and the way home is different now, it is still night time, but the footpaths are lit by the warm kind of light from shops and stuff...and there are lightposts and i remember going around a very pretty corner...

and then...the second friend of mine suddenly gets down on the footpath and there is a whole lot of nuts spread over half of the footpath and she uses her foot, with a red sock on it, to brush a red line across them...then looks up at us and smiles...then it turns into a tv commercial for nuts...with a voice over and everything...we keep walking...and there are people with red socks and nuts everywhere

i remember something about it hurting to walk over them...

and then something happens to cause the traffic lights to stop working and suddenly all of the drivers have gotten a case of road rage and it's pretty scaring

we get annoyed since one of the cars tried to run over one of us so i randomly kick a white car going past...the woman gives me a look

and then....we're home...and apparently we all live together in a small flat..and it's very colourful..i remember red....and there's monica and a whole lot of frogs in a pond [the jelly] and it turns out that for the charity i was going to sell frogs in a pond....but if 'david' does his part then we needn't bother

i argued that we should still make some frogs since we can't rely on him to actually go through with it but the others said it was a sure thing...like all best friends would do in a movie....

and monica eats her frog in a pond

that's it

something else, all through out the night and this morning even in my dreams, i've had two songs stuck in my head

first, and most of the time, it was from the rocky horror picture show, it's the part where the guy....is it 'rob'?...jannet's fiance, is saying 'help me mommy' and then wen the two servants come busting in with their guns and sing about taking over and how his mission is a failure....

and then i had chicago in my head....that song about billy...'we, want, billly' and 'i don't care about expensive things, diamond rings, don't mean a thing, all i care about is love' 'all he cares about is love'

lol thats it folks

secret lesbians and punk outfits

ok i thought about it

it made me happy not because she had a job

which i realised is pretty stupid because...she most likely is in uni

and you can have one of those arty bags in uni

i noe i said it wasn't because she'd stopped wearing the punky clothes [while walkin past my house] but...

it is partially because of that

have you ever seen a mature person wearing a punky outfit?

you can be into punk sure, but i think that the wearing of a punk outfit is a bit...well you always think of a younger person wearing it...so my thinking is that she's grown up!

ah damn...i haven't figured it out yet

i will keep trying to find the reason behind my happy feeling

...i am quite sure it's not because i'm a secret lesbian

i'm sleepy

but my mum won't let me sleep

she'll scream my vietnamese name out really loud and shrill every 5-8 minutes to make sure i'm not sleeping again

and i don't know why

well i don't know exactly why

it could be something got to do with not being able to sleep later on at night if i slept now

or it could just be part of some hidden plan of hers to deprive me of my sleep...my happiness

lol

today i saw this girl walk past my house

she used to do it alot more often....or just a lot more wen i was looking...

she used to go to my skool

she was like 2years my senior

and she used to make her own clothes

she had a punk-ish style

and maybe she's who got me into that little phase of kinda punk-ish-stuff

but she is partially wat got me into making my own bags and tshirts

so usually she'd be walking past in her punky clothes....boots, skirts, stockings, red stuff, black stuff....

but today...she walked past in almost normal clothes

it was a big skivvy...the type with the huge collars that you fold down and are still huge...and she wore pants...i didn't look closly enough to notice wat colour etc...

but the bit that made it special for me was that she carried one of those proffessional arty cases

the one that you can carry on ur shoulder...

and it made me feel...something

happy i guess

not that she had left punkyness behind, although her outfit still seemed to stand out even though on anyone else it wouldn't have done poop

but that my..inspiration has got a life? that she hasn't given up art

and that she has a job, well i assumed that she had a job...but maybe she was just...looking for a job? with a folio of her stuff maybe...

anyway

i have to go dye my father's quickly fading hair

it was weird today

my parents came home from shopping at started to rapidly cook

dad fried some pork chops, mum cooked some other meat, while baking this kind of combination of meat and egg.....and dad bought two crabs

the house was cold since both doors were left open to let the cooking smells out

it was a cooking frenzy

alright gotta go

Russell Kennedy

i just had a...brain wave...wave through me?

anyway,

i have an idea!

for wenever it may come in handy

so leaving it here to prevent forgetfullness:


wen starting/promoting a business, like KandidFrank, grab handful of business cards and go down to the public library

and stick the cards into a whole lot of books as if you had read the book and had forgotten ur 'bookmark' in it

muahahaahaha...that way...people that read, intelligent! people, will come to know of ur business

this brainwave waved to me wen i found a business card for a certain solicitor named 'cin dy wong' who works in a legal group 'Russell Kennedy' which is a member of the 'Kennedy Strang Legal Group'....confusing...but the point is, this card burried in between pages 310 and311 of a Tom Holt omnibus has given me brain waves

yesterday i borrowed a book

and i started reading it to avoid hw, i only meant to read 1 chapter and...it's not that i couldn't put it down, it's just that wenever i finished doing something, picking up the book seemed like the right thing to do


so by 1:30 that morning i had finished it

it was High Fidelity by Nick Hornby

it's a very memorable name, before i'd read the book i would remember the name but never could recall what it was exactly that he had written

yeh it was a bit of a suprise that i liked it so much since a friend had really not enjoyed it and...i generally trust her opinion....hm, i have now just realised how trustable her opinion is to me ^____^ hi brittany! ....just read that over and it seems like i am saying that her opinion is not trustable...but i mean it in the straightest way, i really do think that her opinion is very trustable...i thought about alll the things i trust her taste in....if she says a certain band is good...then i will assume that it is good...not that i will actually put any effort into dwlding some of their stuff...but i will assume that it is good

wen you read a book that has been made into a movie people usually ask whether it was better than the other or not


and i'll say, the movie was good, and without it, i probably wouldn't have enjoyed the novel as much...afterall...i do love quotes!

so, the book was great, especially with all the extra parts that aren't in the movie and the way everything is ordered differently and how you get to really understand wat is going on....but without the movie the novel wouldn't be as great...but still great....and the movie, was good! because of john cusak, jack black...the bald guy playing Dick, and joan cusak...i always had her voice and face in mind wen her character was in play in the novel....

anny way....today i've realised how little time i have left to finish my folio

basically 2months

and i am so screwed

not quite wat i was thinking

lol yeh that did sound wrong; 'makes me want to have a preacher man's son'

i'm not ready for kids, obviously.

so i do not want to have the guys son...as in give birth to one....

it makes me want one....partner-wise

man i am so bored

i went to sleep at 4....and got up at 8

then watched 2 episodes of newley downloaded naruto...and it is almost 9pm

i kinda wish the day would go faster...but then i kinda don't cos then...skool is coming bak.

i have a sore throat

and thats the way it is

song that should be made into a movie:

son of a preacher man

from the first time i heard it....on pulp fiction? i've always loved this song

it's so smooth and has a bit of a 'church-singing-people' thing to it

but the best part [for me] is the words

..it makes me want to have a preacher man's son

planned to do hw today

and it is my excuse to not go with my mum to take my aunty from vietnam shopping

so sat down at my very clean desk [and since it was already clean, there was nothing to do to avoid the hw], opened my books, sat for a bit, sighed and turned away

i would love to go shopping, but i don't really like my aunty from vietnam

i don't noe if it's that i don't like her, or if i just feel nervous around her

so....i've been playing solitaire with the music playing for the last 20minutes

and now that i've mentioned my love for the song [isn't it funny that no matter who sings it, it always seems to sound the same?] i shall go bak to playing solitaire

i got 56seconds today!

i hope to get 55 [talking about solitaire]

wat we bought today

my first recharge card

it's funny, i thought that the recharge card would be...a card

and 1kg of gummy bears

LOL

you noe how i said i was gonna see dark knight...yesterday?

well i did [say it]

and it ends up that we were a little confused but didn't realise that we were confused until we'd gotten to knox and had been standing around for about 10 minutes [since we were early]

lucky we didn't go up to the ticket box...that would have been embarrassing

yes we are going to see dark knight on the day that it comes out

but that day was not yesterday

it is next week.

you noe was it ridiculous

blockbuster closing at 9pm

why, would a video store close at 9pm??!

it's like the cinemas stopping their movies at 9pm

absolutely stupid

even the pizza place [that we usually order pizza from then borrow dvds and come bak to pick it up] stays open later

stupid stupid stupid

so we ended up just ordering pizza and sitting in the chair and flipping though women's magazines and judging who was the prettiest and who was just not until the pizzas were ready then went home to watch run fat boy run....then my brother's kinda-girlfriend called so me and brian watched death at a funeral for about 45min then we went bak to run fat boy fun and then we watched '300'...then we slept

yeh...today i alphabeticallised all my dvds

and put all my tealights into a box

billy is pretty organised now

[yeh billy is the shelf's actual name, ikea has a thing for giving male names to their products, i saw two other names the other day but i've already forgotten..]

i'm so tired, it's weird

and my fingers hurt....especially wen i type....owwwwww.....

lol ok

oh yeh

and my passion for old movies is growing

i watched roman holiday on tv the other day

loved it

and a longer time ago 'gigi' was on tv...didn't get to see the end but i find that i really do wanna see the rest

and watched 'some like it hot' again...hilarious...the whole family watched it...well brian was there for bits of it and older brother wasn't home...but me, mum and dad watched it and we all liked it...ok gonna go...brian found Karsten today

karsten is a chair ^_____^