guilty groping gums

i just feel guilty...

i don't have gums groping people....

my candles are going out

ahhhhhh i feeeeel soo bad

i wanna go to sleep

not die, sleep is like...temporary die ^^'

i was sooo excited since...like last year to get some of my friends to come work with us....waitering

and so i worked hard to start working outside and to be good enough to help wen one of my friends start out

and mum said yes [wen i asked last year] so i told emily that she could come work with us one day...and it was exciting.....

and so the other day my mum said i could start asking people to come work with us

so i told emily on the first day of skool that she could come

and we were like yay!!! and yeh talkin about things you gotta do - like learning to hold the spoons and forks and wat to wear and how much you get and figuring out transport

and then 2dai...cos emily's mum had some questions...i went to ask the questions and this is wen she fould out that emily is australian orange headed.

yeh so i guess it does make sense that an australian serving azn food at an azn food for an azn catering service would seem a bit strange. but still....the dissappointment...

and i felt soo bad

and me and parents had a bit of an argument thingii

and then i had to call emily and tell her [partially cos i noe that at skool we don't really have much time anymore to talk since we don't have any classes together and she usually plays with different ppl at lunch and partially cos i noe that i'd stumble and i wouldn't be able to concentrate with all the...other people around....and i would accidently say the wrong thing or give off the wrong impression] and i felt sooo bad

i noe she was sad....you could sorta hear it in her voice...and i felt so racist and mean cos i got her up high [like i have a job!!] and then just dropped her....d'you think that it was bad to have said it over the phone?

ahh....

btw...i made another shirt a while ago

it's pretty good

i've got pics....and it went through the wash and i thought it would fade but it's fine...i'll put it up sometime....i had to use my brother's camera...i don't know how to charge mine..-____-

my day has been permanently dead.

oh and it wasn't just cos i being western and not fitting in...there was the fact that viet ppl are...softer....like my mum was afraid that she'd slip in the kitchen [which happens quite often] and then like her parents would sue us....exaggerated but you noe...viet pppl are used to suffering for moneyyy...

and the other thing is that we mostly work on the other side of the city...so like traveling there and back would be a bummer....an hour there and another bak and it'd be bothersome for parents....and if she travelled with us we'd go earlier and it'd be like 12hours of work for $100 [full pay] and petrol....probably not worth it. people from past from wantirna....stopped working cos of the trouble...plus it's a saturday night...go out.

ok i'm gonna clean up room and then me and brian and watch friend before we sleep...

my lit class is a muck

the year 10's are smarter than us

and a little weird american-accented boy sat with us in group discussion

we will sit on a different table.

Dr Frankie and Heath Ledger

thought i said something quite amusing and HAD to tell someone:

in the end, he's on his way back to Geneva, and taking double douses of his sleeping pills which causes him to hae nighmares. drugs kill. sleeping pills [possibly?] killd Heath Ladger, watch out Dr Frankie!!

yeh that was about frankenstien. it was the first time i refered to the dr as Frankie, which amuses me.

here's something else...i heard it yesterday on channel 31. imagine a guy...with shouler length hair and john lennon glasses in a fur coat with a screechy grandma voice on a swivel chair:

'has anyone told you that you look like Hilary Duff? she's small and fragile but can make cakes!'

haven't eaten anything 2dai

in a bit of a mood caused by a certain sibling.

but i think i'd better eat before work.

go ahead; jump!

knock urself out.

i'm not smelly

there was a wedding last nite

usually after a wedding a wake up later

but there is a silly fly

flying around my room [bed] and landing on my face

and it's not cos i'm smelly

cos i had a shower wen i got home last nite

i am annoyed

and tired

goodnite.

the light shining through on you

2dai went to boxhill to eat lunch

then to johnston street to buy books

i got 'download this' a book with a whole lot of songs that i should dwld legally...a collection of stuff by richard hell [cool hardcover book....love hard cover books]...a little [also hard cover] book called 'poetry to make you smile'...and small book for cheap n easy interior decoration....and a funktionary....here are some of my favs[from the 'a' section]:

adbocate: [v] to give up all hope of ever having a flat stomach
accelervator: [n] a person who mistakenly believes that the elavator call button will respond faster if it's pushed frequently and in a frenzied manner
acknodledge: [v] on a continum of knowing someone, from complete stranger to close friend, someone you acknodledge is the kind of person you might dimly recognise and not at in passing, which amounts to a brief gesture below the minimum required to stop and chat

ok so that was just from the first page but i can't be bothered.

newai. my dad bought a whole lot of travel books and my mum got a biography on whitney houston and some...herby....health...book....and i got a monopoly-buisness book for my older brother....and my mum bought a make-cool-shapes-out-of-you-bushes book for my dad.....not that either of us [dad and me] think that he would ever do any of it.

15 books...all $4.99 and 2 were free since we spent more than $50

ahhhh

headache.

if you like pina coladas

full godfather trilogy on dvd. xmas gift for my uncle. the first person-figure on the second dvd was in paint. found that it scratched off easily so everything else was done with a cd texta.

went to see national teasure 2 the other day with family

was slightly entertaining.

this morning went to see enchanted with jasmine, hayley and monica.

was good

movies i'd like to one day see [either on the big screen or dvd]:

p.s i love you
27 dresses
walk hard
death at a funeral
i'm not there
sweeney todd
jane austen book club

i noe, i'm a sucker for chick flicks, comedies and musicals.

i used to consider myself tomboy-ish

but i now realise that the only thing tomboy-ish about me is the way i dress and my fidgety-ness around physical contact [hugs and hand linking]. the music i listen to is of neutral gender i believe....

i would like to learn how to dance jazz

that would be coooool

or tap, or swing....but jazz i've always liked.

but i noe i will NEVER be able to get myself to do it.

maybe i'll have one of those movie moments and go about changing my whole life and doing stuff i'd never normally do.

2008 has come

and jess emerges with a new pair of boobs

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i've been listening to the new cat empire album for a while now. wen i first got it i was dissappointed cos it wasn't wat i was expecting. but i guess it wasn't fair cos they can't stay the same forever, it's like trying to stop the beatles from moving from 'she loves you' to 'get back'.

although their earlier stuff was 'raw', happy and easily puts a smile to ur face i found that the new album was...different of course, there was less obvious 'happy' and the raw was aalmost all gone. you just gotta listen, and you'll find that it's still the cat empire.

well just had to talk about that since a cat empire song was playing but it is finished now so...

i've been searching for this song, in the wee small hours by eric clapton.

i swear that he sung it at chuck berry's 'reunion' concert...but i can't find it, i've got 'in the wee small hours of the morning' by frank sinatra but it's not right..

man i love eric clapton

wanna read his autobiography.

really wanted to go to the book warehouse thing that's always on tv....$1.95 books. i memorized the address that sounded most accessible to me: 222 johnston st collingwood. we were sooo close to it 2dai, but my brother had to get bak home fast cos he's going on a trip with his girlfriend. but damn it i wanna goooooooooo

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my cousin left 2dai

can't say i'll miss her

would like to say i will

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so the 1st of january represents work for me.

gonna start studying jap everyday, gotta catch up a year

gonna start reading frankenstein....actually, gotta find the little plastic pocket containing all homework sheets.......

maybe not 2dai...but i've gotta restart yoga and driving lessons.

cousin is gone so i must start helping family with wedding preparations...which is gonna be hellllllll

should start preparing for units3&4 studio art.

and i've promised to take careful care of my skin this year.

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i will make many cool things this year.