i just feel guilty...
i don't have gums groping people....
my candles are going out
ahhhhhh i feeeeel soo bad
i wanna go to sleep
not die, sleep is like...temporary die ^^'
i was sooo excited since...like last year to get some of my friends to come work with us....waitering
and so i worked hard to start working outside and to be good enough to help wen one of my friends start out
and mum said yes [wen i asked last year] so i told emily that she could come work with us one day...and it was exciting.....
and so the other day my mum said i could start asking people to come work with us
so i told emily on the first day of skool that she could come
and we were like yay!!! and yeh talkin about things you gotta do - like learning to hold the spoons and forks and wat to wear and how much you get and figuring out transport
and then 2dai...cos emily's mum had some questions...i went to ask the questions and this is wen she fould out that emily is australian orange headed.
yeh so i guess it does make sense that an australian serving azn food at an azn food for an azn catering service would seem a bit strange. but still....the dissappointment...
and i felt soo bad
and me and parents had a bit of an argument thingii
and then i had to call emily and tell her [partially cos i noe that at skool we don't really have much time anymore to talk since we don't have any classes together and she usually plays with different ppl at lunch and partially cos i noe that i'd stumble and i wouldn't be able to concentrate with all the...other people around....and i would accidently say the wrong thing or give off the wrong impression] and i felt sooo bad
i noe she was sad....you could sorta hear it in her voice...and i felt so racist and mean cos i got her up high [like i have a job!!] and then just dropped her....d'you think that it was bad to have said it over the phone?
ahh....
btw...i made another shirt a while ago
it's pretty good
i've got pics....and it went through the wash and i thought it would fade but it's fine...i'll put it up sometime....i had to use my brother's camera...i don't know how to charge mine..-____-
my day has been permanently dead.
oh and it wasn't just cos i being western and not fitting in...there was the fact that viet ppl are...softer....like my mum was afraid that she'd slip in the kitchen [which happens quite often] and then like her parents would sue us....exaggerated but you noe...viet pppl are used to suffering for moneyyy...
and the other thing is that we mostly work on the other side of the city...so like traveling there and back would be a bummer....an hour there and another bak and it'd be bothersome for parents....and if she travelled with us we'd go earlier and it'd be like 12hours of work for $100 [full pay] and petrol....probably not worth it. people from past from wantirna....stopped working cos of the trouble...plus it's a saturday night...go out.
ok i'm gonna clean up room and then me and brian and watch friend before we sleep...
my lit class is a muck
the year 10's are smarter than us
and a little weird american-accented boy sat with us in group discussion
we will sit on a different table.
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WOW you wrote this a while ago.
Sorry couldn't reply earlier, school has been a royal biatch these past few weeks.
I haven't spoken to you like proper for some time now.
I changed from Psychology to 20th History. Mainly...because psychology was boring the shithouse out of me.
And i don't apologise for my language because it really was THAT bad.
I'll probably be seeing you pretty soon anyways, when i come over to pick up "the secret tee-shirt" for that "secret person" in that "secret family". i don't think i can get any more vague with that... but i hope you get my drift.
That sounds like a real bummer, not being able to work with one of your friends. I am sure you can work at another place with her (maybe a record shop??)
And i understand the whole "racial" thing...and it sucks. big. time. it's just BLAH.
And it is really really hard to explain to someone the whole "racial" thing, especially if they don't come from the same background as us. And its a pain in the butt trying to explain because they might take it the wrong way or misunderstand. But i guess that's something we have to deal with because we're asian living in australia. It's just disappointing when there is a generation gap interfering with a 'racial gap' because that's a double-whammy there.
I hope everything works out between you dudes!
Talk to you soon!
britt.
ahaha jess...just decided to read your blog when i saw you online msn cause i didn't want to do hw =P
Anyway, thats quite funny....about the whole emily thing...not that I'm happy that you can't work with her but just cause I didn't think about the whole azn australian thing until I read up to the part where you wrote it! and then i thought ..'yes...that makes sense..' So yea it does make sense..and I assume that you guys cater mostly for azns as well...so its like working for azns who cater azn food for azn people ^^
Anyway, too bad...I'm sure emily can get a job somewhere else.
gonna go do stacks and stacks of hw...
P.S. (if you are ever short on people for waitering you can ask me!..might have to ask parents though =P...and you'll have to teach me how ^^)
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