i'm sleepy

but my mum won't let me sleep

she'll scream my vietnamese name out really loud and shrill every 5-8 minutes to make sure i'm not sleeping again

and i don't know why

well i don't know exactly why

it could be something got to do with not being able to sleep later on at night if i slept now

or it could just be part of some hidden plan of hers to deprive me of my sleep...my happiness

lol

today i saw this girl walk past my house

she used to do it alot more often....or just a lot more wen i was looking...

she used to go to my skool

she was like 2years my senior

and she used to make her own clothes

she had a punk-ish style

and maybe she's who got me into that little phase of kinda punk-ish-stuff

but she is partially wat got me into making my own bags and tshirts

so usually she'd be walking past in her punky clothes....boots, skirts, stockings, red stuff, black stuff....

but today...she walked past in almost normal clothes

it was a big skivvy...the type with the huge collars that you fold down and are still huge...and she wore pants...i didn't look closly enough to notice wat colour etc...

but the bit that made it special for me was that she carried one of those proffessional arty cases

the one that you can carry on ur shoulder...

and it made me feel...something

happy i guess

not that she had left punkyness behind, although her outfit still seemed to stand out even though on anyone else it wouldn't have done poop

but that my..inspiration has got a life? that she hasn't given up art

and that she has a job, well i assumed that she had a job...but maybe she was just...looking for a job? with a folio of her stuff maybe...

anyway

i have to go dye my father's quickly fading hair

it was weird today

my parents came home from shopping at started to rapidly cook

dad fried some pork chops, mum cooked some other meat, while baking this kind of combination of meat and egg.....and dad bought two crabs

the house was cold since both doors were left open to let the cooking smells out

it was a cooking frenzy

alright gotta go