fallacies and exaggerations

i didn't go to school today

and i didn't sleep till late last night

it was too hot

and the importance of the work i had been avoiding all day finally sunk in

so i got up and did some reading on Jane Eyre after reading quite a bit of Wuthering Heights

this morning me and brian slept in

and since i don't have studio art anymore [double period today] and since in methods we're just going over practise exams [also a double period] and since we never do any work in standard [and cos we've already done our topic test - 1period today] and since i'm not really enjoying/doing any work in vcd anymore, well there wasn't any point in going to school for that one period anyway

so i stayed home to do some studying [for exams and sacs]

started off with pride and prejudice, but then sparknotes [the site i was using] started to screw up and the pages won't load, so i began reading up on bill henson for Studio art

before doing any reading up on the topic, i'd planned to take the positive perspective and discuss why bill henson's work is art and not any kind of child porn.

but then i started to read into it and found many opinions that claimed the opposite and it started to make sense. for example; 'artists can do whatever they like if they lived on a deserted island, but not if they lived in a respectable community' and 'bill henson has pushed the boudaries and understandably others are pushing back'.

i have been to a bill henson exhibition, and i found nothing close to porn. i admit, a few had a kind of sexual charge to it, but it was a little bit confusing since there was no obvious source. there was a particular series that i liked, 'adrift in the crowd' i think it was. it showed how in a crowd some people stand out and others don't and that it is similar to how we can shine one minute and then be totally invisible the next.

but wat i was saying was that, at this point, i'd figured that there had to be some really scary-child-porn photos out there that i had just not seen. why else was there such a controversy on this subject? so i looked up his photos on some gallery websites.

and didn't find anything

so then i was aggravated

and i was back supporting bill henson

a short while later

i searched bill henson on google images and found a few that were kinda disturbing

but i'm just not sure if it is enough to move my belief in freedom of art.

is bill henson a glorified paedophile? is he a smart publicist seeking infamy through controversy? or is he just an artist doing what artists do?

confused, and sparknotes still won't load, so i think i'll read some more Wuthering Heights, maybe nap

btw, watched another bette davis movie yesterday; Dark Victory. Don't know how Gone With the Wind overtook it.

shopaholic?

not good

i've become a shopaholic

it's bad

i noe that the money i have is only because i was lucky enough to have parents that will employ me. but unless i decided to one day take over the business full time, the money is not stable.

so if i become a shopaholic

i will run out of money

eventually

either i will keep spending until i run out

or i will get so used to spending all the money that i won't be able to stop even without a source of income

i have thought up two possible solutions;

1. get a job
2. slowly reduce my shopping intake

really only the second one seems possible

so

i need rules

starting today [24th october] till 24th november, i will not buy anything

except for work shoes

and anything for the formal

....oh no

i keep thinking up other things that should be on that 'except' list

maybe...maybe this one month thing is too big a feat for me

maybe

lets make it

this upcoming week [sunday 26th till saturday november 1st] i will not spend any money, the two above being the only exception

so it's either that

or

i make a weekly budget?

but then i don't noe wen i will stumble upon a bargain!

a monthly budget sounds better

haggled with jinali over the school-monthly budget:

Jess. says:
$100 a school month?
:: [nali]. says:
$50
Jess. says:
50!?
Jess. says:
$75
:: [nali]. says:
70!!!!!!!!!!!
Jess. says:
ok $70 but no lower!
Jess. says:
no wait wait!
:: [nali]. says:
its a deal
:: [nali]. says:
done n dusted
Jess. says:
noooooooooooooo!
Jess. says:
but wat if i find a fantastic deal like my super boots!
:: [nali]. says:
DON"T BUY
Jess. says:
hmm....i could carry the extra over onto the next month
Jess. says:
or the last
Jess. says:
i think this sounds good
:: [nali]. says:
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
:: [nali]. says:
SAVE
:: [nali]. says:
SAVEEEE
Jess. says:
carry over!
:: [nali]. says:
NO
Jess. says:
whhhyyyy
:: [nali]. says:
causeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Jess. says:
no! i'm sticking to $70 a month...with carry overs!
Jess. says:
:P
Jess. says:
actually
Jess. says:
since it's school months i will make it
Jess. says:
$50 a month with carry overs!
:: [nali]. says:
one day, u'll regret when u see. that u have a thousand pairs of shoes in ur room and loads of clothes and dvds. and u'll think "did i really need all this shit?" HUH HUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:: [nali]. says:
ayo
:: [nali]. says:
bad jess
Jess. says:
you have a point
Jess. says:
but i can't just go cold turkey!

and that's just on the school months

wat about the holiday months? no limits?

jinali suprisingly agrees:

:: [nali]. says:
holidays is okai. i guess. but u still gotta control urself, don't let urself loose again!!!!!!!! u animal!!!!

so it is settled

during a school month i must stick to the budget of $50 a month, carry-ons allowed, and during a holiday month the budget does not apply but caution is recommended.

lol had a bit of fun with that last bit ^_____^

you noe wat sucks about this plan?

i don't actually get to put it into action until february since this month is almost over [and i think it might have been a holiday month anyway...did the term start before or after the start of october?] and next month is a holiday month as well as the next few.

plus christmas is coming and we gotta buy presents ><

so, from now on, i will be recording every single thing i spend

maybe i should buy a little pocket book for it!

tempting.....

met up for book club today

most expensive book club meeting yet

couldn't resist buying a beatle picture book and two dvds for meself

and bought some presents for melissa

spelt her name wrong on the inside cover

but reckon i covered it up pretty well

met fizz, it's been ages

kinda strange, but felt a kind of attraction?

not so sure about it, like exactly wat it was, but it was definitley there

dwlded the phantom of the opera soundtrack [movie]

finally able to listen to songs that frequently get stuck in my head, huge relief

bought today, first season of sex and the city and the first volume of the 3 stooges box set.

in the middle of making more shortbread biscuits

must bake...

Teachings

today i discovered 'Art for Art's sake'

"...a philosophy that the intrinsic value of art, and the only "true" art, is divorced from any didactic, moral or utilitarian function..."

how did i happen to stumble apon this?

well 10cc of course

dwlded 'the very best of 10cc' and there was this song called 'art for art's sake' so i looked it up

'...Like walking in the rain and snow...When there’s nowhere to go..."

10cc - The Things We Do For Love

Preparation

this weekend we've got weddings on both saturday and sunday

so i'm working on saturday [depressingly in the kitchen]

and on sunday i'm at home

i'm hoping, praying, that there will not be any weekend hw

so i can iron everyone's summer clothes, laze about eating and watching stuff

i've prepared pretty well i think

i've got 8 movies from the library

one that i bought

3sailor moon discs and buffy

it's quite a variety too

comedy, romance, coming-of-age..although now action.....black and white, old yet in color, and relatively new

it will be a good day ^___^

now, biography on charlotte bronte -__________-

I Can Do It

Final Piece 1: 'Stereotypes at Work'

Final Piece 2: 'Judge a Book by it's T-Shirt'

[click on to enlarge...quality is better too]

i made everything myself, except for the cotton t-shirts (and i didn't make the wood or the nails or paint or anything)

but i mean that i screen printed all the shirts from my own stencils of phrases and characters that i created

and me and dad and brother put the wood together

and the background pattern i rollered on individually.

Listening to: The Producers Soundtrack...'you see rio i see jaiiilll' 'we can do it' 'i can't do it' 'we can do it' i cannot cannot cannot cannot do it cos i noe it's gonna faiiillll'

^______^

bought Funny Face yesterday for $8

going to the beach tomorrow after school for nat's birthday!

emails

brittany,

i have no idea about friday! i've sent an offline msg to emma and you about it, but obviously because you guys aren't on...there's been no reply. gotta noe soon, cos if there isn't then i could do something else. ...your comments are super! and btw, i sent an email to Johnny Cupcakes and he replied; kind of a strange mix of exciting and intimidating.

jess.

and since we're in a bit of a email mood, here's a longer than usual email i sent to my grandma last night:

Dear Jo,

you're one crazy granny you know? you do so many wildly exciting and cool things, i don't think i could keep up!

i've been taking driving lessons lately, it's been decent. i'm learning manual and at first it was pretty simple, then when the thinking part comes in, it got a bit tricky, but then it went smooth again and i hope it stays that way! it's handy and slightly exciting, but public transport still looks good to me.

although i've handed my folio in last wednesday it still seems kinda hectic because me and two other friends are going to be entering our folios into Top Arts. one friend is taking it easy and doesn't seem to be too fussed, the other is just franticly [sp?] running around trying to make everything perfect although i reckon she's just making it more stressful than it has to be...it kinda rubs off on me. the last week i've been trying to get good photos of my final pieces, trying to figure out exactly what the application means with their vague terms and conditions, choosing only 10 pages out of my multiple folios to send in and worrying about how to write emails to big companies/brands asking for copyright clearance.

when i'm not doing that, well i'm being super lazy watching Buffy dvds, sleeping and reading books. i don't think i've quite balanced my life properly.

i've just recently read Pride and Prejudice, i bought the book and its a beautiful leather bound version which i love, i'm a sucker for pretty things. anyway, the actual novel, i'm not quite sure what i think of it, the whole time i was reading it i just kept seeing scenes from the Keira Knightley movie or even just the actors playing out bits that hadn't been put into the movie; i wasn't really able to read the book and actually feel Jane Austen's writing style. i guess that's what happens when you read the book of a movie that you've already seen much too many times.

so the reason why i read Pride and Prejudice was for school, we're doing a comparative analysis and we get to pick our subjects. initially me and my partner were thinking to compare Pride and Prejudice to Bridget Jones' Diary [movie] but then i've just realised that it might be a bit difficult comparing a movie to a novel and, what is there to compare except the modern interpretations of Jane Austen's story? so i've thought to change it to a comparitive between Pride and Prejudice and Jane Eyre. i'm thinking this will be easier since we've both already read Jane Eyre and since they're both novels, with distinct female main characters and well i guess we could compare the two authors views on love, marriage, family and social standing? but i've still to put the idea to my friend. have you read either novels? what do you think?

do you remember me as tom-boyish? i think it's...interesting to think about the phases that you've gone through, and then to think about the phases that you could possibly get into. have i mentioned that i can knit and sew? although, it is only the most basic technique of knitting...the knit ^^ and with the sewing i can only do simple things like sewing up pant legs and other random things. i rememer you taught me how to knit once. although i totally forgot how to after you'd left. i ended up going to this lunch time thing that one of the teachers held back in...year9? it was very awkward because no one had shown up but me and the friends that i had dragged along, and the teacher was well known for her strict attitude and having a tendency to turn red and blow up. so i only went once, then kind of just figured out the rest by myself, consequently, i only know the one technique and nothing of the others.

i've written quite a bit about myself, i think it's because with all the panicing and the couch potato-attitude i haven't been able to write much in my blog so i have this pent up need to just...type.

i should go now; sleep good, sitting-in-the-glow-of-a-

computer-screen-at-almost-11pm bad

goodnight jo,
jess.

and now my font has gone weird

but anyway

...damn

lost my trail of thought while right in the middle of it...

gonna go......

yesterday i worked on a boat

it was the first time anybody had asked for my number

it was definitley heaps of fun

minimum work load

plus tip

yesterday was good

i'd bought this dress that was on sale at the glen on thursday....originally $70 but i got it for $5 [tho duno who would spend $70 on it...its too simple and plain...nothing special)

it's got green and white vertical lines and it kinda reminds of primary school uniform dress

it's got two vertical straps [thick], and it goes in under the boobs and has fabric that you pull back to tighten.

it was too long [middle shins?] so i sewed it up the other night [by hand because i had nothing else to do] so it's around my knees

it's very cute/playful

tho it doesn't look great by itself ...probably cos of the addition of big shoulders and underarm flab

so i thought maybe to wear a shirt underneath...but yesterday i just wore it with one of those half cardigans [cream coloured] and it looked great

i was just a bit iffy about showing all that leg...but i guess i'll get over it

anyway...wore that to jap school....was fun

gonna do oral next week

and then went home [reluctently changed out of dress into uniform] and went to work

...was gonna get more into how great working on the boat was...and the number asking bit

but gotta take in the clothes, eat lunch, and do some errands

oh well