shame & vanity

i love working at the weddings

and although today we had 3 weddings and mum had long in advance booked all the waiters [which included me] to work 0n this particular day

and although my mum was very stressed about today, and allocated me the job of paying the waiters at the end of the night

i had to pull out at the last minute

because i look like a burn victim

and although i can take the shame of the staring eyes while buying groceries and going to the library

i cannot go to a formal event

and serve food

i feel very bad for wat i've done

so i will spend my day at home cleaning up the house

and dabbing my face with a cool wet towel