Souls with Psychic Powers

'This morning i was slowly waking up, opening my eyes, when i thought i saw a spider on my bedroom wall. But as i fully opened my eyes it dissappeared. Because i'm doing Minority Report in Literature i got to thinking about subjective reality. Now, not on purpose, it happened again. i was fighting to wake up and struggled to open my eyes again. i saw another spider, in a different position. This got me thinking, what if the world i knew is just what my senses feed and create around me? Is there another world out there, where my bedroom walls are covered with big black spiders? Does this world exist after i'm gone?
Or maybe i'm just crazy and there ARE spiders all over my wall that in my sleep-like-state, i tried to ignore?'

this is wat made me slightly late to school today. had to write it down. and my mum kept nagging me about how to use the computer. she's started lessons.

today i got my last tooth out. so that's four in total. one on each side up and down. i think it's the drugs. i always feel depressed after getting a tooth out. or maybe it's just because i actually start thinking about serious matters and it makes me worried and depressed. because i'm screwed.

the receptionist said i was too young to have teeth pulled out. she doesn't know that this was my 4th extraction. she said i better think of transplants or something. and soon. because if i leave it too long, max 2years. my bones will die or something. it costs around $4000. but i won't be able to bite if i don't get it, she says. i said that i was hoping that the growth of my wisdom teeth will push the teeth and rearrange everything. she said that not everybody has wisdom teeth.

apart from that, there would still be hints of regret since i have an attachment to my teeth. who doesn't. i'm only 17. and i've already lost 4. imagine 60. forget 60, wat about 30?

why are teeth so bothersome? and my skin? and my imune system? i'm not very healthy -___-

imagine a world where we didn't need physical bodies. we were just...souls. with psychic powers!!! [is it psychic or kinetic i'm thinking? i don't know wat i'm talkin about. i mean that we can move stuff with our minds!] and where we don't need health insurance. maybe soul insurance. but i think it'd be easier taking care of just the soul instead of teeth and skin and hearts and arms. do souls get fevers?

i'm supposed to be writing a practice analysis for literature. it's too hard. too many ideas/concerns genres etc to talk about. it's mind numbing and i don't know where to start. plus. i'm confused. about subjective reality and existentialism. the part where Flemming tumbles out of nowhere in the space ship and stranggles Lisa...is that subjective reality or existentialism?

i'm rubbish with politics. i did well wen comparing Pride&Prejudice and Jane Eyre. because i understood it. but politics? how come so many of the texts are based on politics? 1984, Minority Report, Blade Runner and Passage to India. i don't get it. therefore i cannot discuss it as well as i should.

so i'm supposed to be working on this. but i'm distracted about being depressed about teeth.

Questionable Answers

i found it!!!

i listened to it carefully

and i had this feeling that it belonged in a movie or something

and it reminded me of someone cold and hungry

and then i remembered [after a while] VICTOR AND VICTORIA!!!!

i found it i found it i found it!!!!

ah..

now i have to go bak and do my hw -____-

mysterious track03

i was doing hw

with my ipod playing on the dock thing

and this song came on

it's a kind of haunting orchestral kinda of thing

i think

something you'd hear in a ballet

and it really grew on me, and i wanted to know wat the song was

but it's called track03 by unknown artist etc

and i can't even tell wat folder i've put it into cos it was on shuffle and it doesn't tell me

and now i've gone mad looking for it by searching for all the track03s on the computer

where is it!?!?

i figured that i had too many bad thoughts on my blog

wen it's really not that bad

so i am putting some time into typing something not bad

on friday i went to see Valkyrie with brian

it was a last minute decision, we went to see the last session [9:10]. but wen we got there, the line was huge [ah i just woke up, my brain isn't working right, i can't even think up the sentences in a way for them to make sense]

so in the cinemas we were in the second row in the middle

we both agree that the first half of the movie was boring

and that it was weird that all the characters had different accents. english and american, instead of german

i thought it was funny that they got so many staring scenes in when the main stare-er only had one eye

was happy to find that the family lived

and both of us couldn't catch wat tom cruise yelled out just as he was executed...really wanted to know wat he said cos after he said it the firing squad and everyone else had these shocked faces

for all i know he could have yelled 'GOODBYE MY LIEBLINGS!'

but yeh, it was sad at the end cos they weren't able to kill hitler

but we had planned earlier to go to pancake parlour afterwards so even though it didn't real right anymore we went

we sat at a huge booth, with just the two of us, quiet, because the movie was sad

lol

but then it lightened up once the pancakes came

i don't want to be up

go back to sleep

but i have to do lots of hw

i had to bring home all the books in my locker for the weekend

which is not much

compared to the maths and science people

but it's alot for me

and i didn't do any of the work on friday

or saturday

so it's all for today

yesterday was the first day of jap

so i woke up and my mum took me there

and i'm all sleepy

and it's hot

but then wen i get there, along with all the class listings, i find these pieces of paper saying that students will not be permitted into classrooms until and completed and paid for enrollment form has been returned stuck up on the walls

so i go to look at the class lists for japanese thinking 'oh please oh please oh pleassseee'

and my name wasn't there

so i had to line up in the very long line in this corridor with a group of teeny boppers in front of me, having nothing to do but to listen to their conversation

i waited for an hour

to get a form, fill out the details, and given the paying bit

so then i go outside, call mum to come pick me up, and waited another 10minutes

it was hot

yesterday was the hottest day, 46degrees

but it was very weird how there was a cool change at 6pm, then started raining.

and today is 25degrees

huge change

global warming

day after tomorrow

we're all gonna DIE!!!!

tomorrow is photos

i hate photos

i want to sleep

i have hw to do

i hate hw

i want to sleep

i need to call the uniform shop to order a jumper

i can't be bothered

but i need a jumper

this week is cold

but i prob won't be getting it till...halfway through the year

i want to sleep

i had a dream

that i had a dream

that came true

and i had a baby

but i gave her to aunty ratna to take care of her for me

and i came to meet her [when she was a toddler]

she had green eyes and black hair

she didn't have an asian face

her name started with a c

i regretted letting aunty ratna take care of her since she didn't know me

then i had another dream

that i was going to have another baby

and i was freaking out cos i hadn't slept with anyone and i didn't know wat was happening

yeh it was weird

there were other bits

there is this guy at work who is all quiet and moody

and he was being quiet and moody in my dream

i want to sleep

Sweaty Irritation

year12 sucks

and it sucks even more in summer

and my dad is mean

ah i don't want to talk about it

just, ARGH!