'This morning i was slowly waking up, opening my eyes, when i thought i saw a spider on my bedroom wall. But as i fully opened my eyes it dissappeared. Because i'm doing Minority Report in Literature i got to thinking about subjective reality. Now, not on purpose, it happened again. i was fighting to wake up and struggled to open my eyes again. i saw another spider, in a different position. This got me thinking, what if the world i knew is just what my senses feed and create around me? Is there another world out there, where my bedroom walls are covered with big black spiders? Does this world exist after i'm gone?
Or maybe i'm just crazy and there ARE spiders all over my wall that in my sleep-like-state, i tried to ignore?'
this is wat made me slightly late to school today. had to write it down. and my mum kept nagging me about how to use the computer. she's started lessons.
today i got my last tooth out. so that's four in total. one on each side up and down. i think it's the drugs. i always feel depressed after getting a tooth out. or maybe it's just because i actually start thinking about serious matters and it makes me worried and depressed. because i'm screwed.
the receptionist said i was too young to have teeth pulled out. she doesn't know that this was my 4th extraction. she said i better think of transplants or something. and soon. because if i leave it too long, max 2years. my bones will die or something. it costs around $4000. but i won't be able to bite if i don't get it, she says. i said that i was hoping that the growth of my wisdom teeth will push the teeth and rearrange everything. she said that not everybody has wisdom teeth.
apart from that, there would still be hints of regret since i have an attachment to my teeth. who doesn't. i'm only 17. and i've already lost 4. imagine 60. forget 60, wat about 30?
why are teeth so bothersome? and my skin? and my imune system? i'm not very healthy -___-
imagine a world where we didn't need physical bodies. we were just...souls. with psychic powers!!! [is it psychic or kinetic i'm thinking? i don't know wat i'm talkin about. i mean that we can move stuff with our minds!] and where we don't need health insurance. maybe soul insurance. but i think it'd be easier taking care of just the soul instead of teeth and skin and hearts and arms. do souls get fevers?
i'm supposed to be writing a practice analysis for literature. it's too hard. too many ideas/concerns genres etc to talk about. it's mind numbing and i don't know where to start. plus. i'm confused. about subjective reality and existentialism. the part where Flemming tumbles out of nowhere in the space ship and stranggles Lisa...is that subjective reality or existentialism?
i'm rubbish with politics. i did well wen comparing Pride&Prejudice and Jane Eyre. because i understood it. but politics? how come so many of the texts are based on politics? 1984, Minority Report, Blade Runner and Passage to India. i don't get it. therefore i cannot discuss it as well as i should.
so i'm supposed to be working on this. but i'm distracted about being depressed about teeth.
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Hello....awkward to be commenting just cause you told me to comment and since i don't really have anything to say....but i had no idea that you had 4 teeth pulled out. THUS....that pancake parlour trip on wednesday was ABSOLUTELY UNNECESSARY as i assume you do not wish to have another tooth pulled out! >=X no more sweet stuff for you......=P seriously =[
i don't want to see you teethless at the age of 21 ^^
its telekinesis- the move with your mind thing =D
wishing everything will end up alright for you
your post made me imagine us all as those amoeba thingyies from science back in the days
so even with all our body problems at least we got reasonably well functioning ones
so..look on the bright side of life 'cause ill be standing their waving at you and telling you to hurry up =P
LOL!! wow, jess getting deep on me. do u also think that this world is not real? and ur this one person who realises this world may not be real but a figment of our imagination? an actual copy of the real world is what were living in? LOL. but it is interesting to think abt ey?? GOD. better start on my practice sac... Good LUCK!!! :)
hiya!
sorry for not coming around your blog more often these days...and because of that i will write you a good long comment!
you are doing stuff about reality too! cos i am too! and i thought it was such a weird topic to have for year 12.. i'm doing it for english though, and we are studying this weird-arse text...but then we also doing 'Streetcar named desire', which is good too because we get to watch the theatre production of it so yay!
anyway, i think our souls are easy and not so easy to take care of. i mean, if we only had to take care of our souls and nothing else, then that's fantastic! that'll save me heaps on shampoo and skincare products!!
but then protecting our souls from all the bad things happening is hard too...like, if it starts to rain, how will a soul hold an umbrella? it doesn't have any arms!!! IT HAS NOT ARMS, JESS!!!!!
*ahem*
but in a way, there's that whole thing about 'Body + Soul'..sort of a ying yang thing happening. one can't survive without the other.
So i s'pose we need our bodies forour souls to fully survive.
When you were talking about moving things with your mind it just reminded me of Heroes....that is such a cool show.
I'm at home today because i got food poisioning (again). i dunno what the hell is wrong with me, picking foods that happen to be bad. It sucks. but it's raining and cold today, so maybe it's not such a bad idea to stay at home haha.
TEETH! i haven't gone for a check-up in a while.. but yeah, i had a talk with my dentist about wisdom teeth too (at some point).
I have to get mine out when they fully grow and stuff..but it's been about 2 years or something since the dentist said this and my wisdom teeth STILL haven't grown! It's a bit strange, since those teeth are meant to be smart...
(sorry, that was such a lame joke..)
I had to get 4 teeth pulled out as well, cos my mouth was too small to fit in all of the teeth i had. It was fun...i got to eat congee for a week. YAY. ......*cough*
we must catch-up sooooon mannnnnn!! so we can swap stories about year 12 and all the shenanigans we get up to in SACs and other...stuff.
woo! this is like 3 months worth of comments into one!
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